I approach this Mother’s Day in a way that I never knew possible. I think back to last year when my biggest concern was if Brian was going to offer to take us out to breakfast or would I have to suggest it?
I didn’t know how unimportant that really was.
My foundation, my beliefs, my soul have been rocked. My life flipped upside down and shaken – it’s contents flying about. As a person, a woman, a mother, I’m no longer certain. I ache. I realize I am not in control
When I think of James and Jake, I feel their love immensely. I sense their guidance, although they were with us for such a short time, I would rather have known them a little, than not known them at all. How does that saying go? It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all?
It is so painfully true.
Tomorrow is Mother’s Day and the day I would have turned thirty weeks pregnant. It’s almost too much for me to be able to handle, I am feeling so much emotion right now. My sister and I just went to Kohl’s and the sight of infant boys summer clothes hanging on a rack with clearance tags nearly brought me to my knees. I swim in sadness, but somehow, my love for my family and those tiny boys is bigger than anything I could ever imagined. Somehow, someway, my heart and my life are full, although empty.
Back on February 26, 2008, if I had even imagined what my Mother’s Day would have been like, I would have seen myself in the fetal position, crying out, clutching my heart. I would have wanted to skip over this celebration of Mothers and landed on the day after.
But I can’t. I am here. Ariel and Racecar are here. James and Jake are in my heart – where they belong, for the rest of my life. Although it’s not how I want to mother them, just in my heart, it’s all I have and I will take all I can get.
It is my hope for you, whether you are expecting your first or your
fifth child, whether you are trying to conceive or are adopting, whether your
children or your child are in heaven or here on earth, it is my wish
that you feel the love that surrounds you on this day. That you see how special you are. It is my hope that you comprehend the enormity of being a
Mom. and the miracle growing inside of you, if you are pregnant. The importance of your role is not only significant in your
children’s lives and your husband’s life, but yours and other mothers.
Realize the good. Accept the difficult. Embrace the noise, the mess,
the tantrums, the diapers, the late nights.
They will not last forever – now is
your time. Hold it tight, it is so very precious.
Happy Mother’s Day.
Happy Mother’s Day, Beth.
Happy Mother’s Day, Beth.
THANK YOU! Your words are amazing. I esp. loved EMBRACE the NOISE! I wish I read this earlier because this evening was a NOISY one! Thank you for encouraging me on my daily walk.
Happy Mother’s Day!
THANK YOU! Your words are amazing. I esp. loved EMBRACE the NOISE! I wish I read this earlier because this evening was a NOISY one! Thank you for encouraging me on my daily walk.
Happy Mother’s Day!
Oh Beth. I can’t find the right words to say much about this post but my heart is with you. You have such an amazing perspective. You are so strong.
Happy Mother’s Day.
Oh Beth. I can’t find the right words to say much about this post but my heart is with you. You have such an amazing perspective. You are so strong.
Happy Mother’s Day.
You are in my thoughts, Beth. Your blog was beautiful. Thank you. ((((HUGS))))
You are in my thoughts, Beth. Your blog was beautiful. Thank you. ((((HUGS))))
Beth,
So well stated! Thank you. Embrace each and every moment we have with our children. If only every mother knew how lucky they were. I hope that have a wonderful Mother’s Day!
Sara
juneweds@yahoo.com
Beth,
So well stated! Thank you. Embrace each and every moment we have with our children. If only every mother knew how lucky they were. I hope that have a wonderful Mother’s Day!
Sara
juneweds@yahoo.com
You’re so right. I have tears in my eyes reading your words. So true. I have to say that I did appreciate my family yesterday and enjoyed time with my kids for most of the day.
Happy Mother’s Day Beth.
You’re so right. I have tears in my eyes reading your words. So true. I have to say that I did appreciate my family yesterday and enjoyed time with my kids for most of the day.
Happy Mother’s Day Beth.
Thank you…once again your BEAUTIFUL heart and soul shine through…MY heart is with you. Hold tight Beth!! There is sunshine in the days ahead!! Love your friend, kim
Thank you…once again your BEAUTIFUL heart and soul shine through…MY heart is with you. Hold tight Beth!! There is sunshine in the days ahead!! Love your friend, kim