If all goes as planned, then tonight will be the last night in our home.
Our home. It is truly our home. It’s warm, inviting, cozy and filled with love. This weekend I have walked within these walls thinking about all that we have seen and felt and experienced here. The love, the kisses, both of our children learning to talk and walk and play. The memories are so sweet. The memories are so vivid. After tomorrow, memories will be all we have.
Except sometimes, those memories don’t feel like such a small thing. They are so sweet, they are sometimes bitter, they are sometimes heartbreaking, but through it all we have experienced it all as a family.
This home was my protector after James and Jake died. It was the only place where I felt secure and certain. Every time I walked outside this home after losing them, I felt so alone in this big world, so unsafe, unsure of what will happen, but upon returning through the front door, the not so certain became certain again, I was comfortable in my grief, if that’s even a possibility. I feel gratitude towards this home, I want to hug and thank it for being there for us, through it all, I want to sit and share memories with it over coffee, we’d swap stories remembering the time Brian threw up on the bedroom wall or the time I burned my arm on the oven. And the good, the moment Racecar came home from the hospital, Ariel’s first day of school, or on Christmas day when we told Ariel and Racecar that we were going to be adding to our family by two this summer.
If I could, I’d thank our home for being gentle with me on the days I would wake up and realize my babies had died, I would wake up hopeful it was just a bad dream, but no, it was painfully real when I realized my belly and my heart were empty.
This house is so beautiful. And so are the memories.
I’ll miss our neighbors, who are quiet, friendly and they respect our privacy and our space but would do anything for us. I’ll miss the many varieties of flowers that we planted that came back every year without fail, and yet every year I was in awe of their beauty.
I’ll miss the trees in our backyard that are the home to the birds singing their beautiful songs. I will miss it all.
I say good bye to this house, with sadness, but no regrets. It is time to move on, to create new memories in a new home, a new adventure. We are parting with such sweet sorrow, but we are definitely looking forward to tomorrow.
I feel the same way about our home – we will be leaving in 4 weeks and it is very bitter sweet.
I feel the same way about our home – we will be leaving in 4 weeks and it is very bitter sweet.
I wish you luck today with your closing and hope that you all have a safe move.
I believe you have the right attitude for it, a new adventure with wonderful memories to create.
When can I come pet your kitchen counters again? I just got the shivers thinking about them…
I wish you luck today with your closing and hope that you all have a safe move.
I believe you have the right attitude for it, a new adventure with wonderful memories to create.
When can I come pet your kitchen counters again? I just got the shivers thinking about them…
Starting anew sometimes is always a good thing. Sounds like you are trying to make the best of this move.
I pray all goes well for you and that your new “house” will soon feel like “home”.
thinking of you! (((hugs))
Starting anew sometimes is always a good thing. Sounds like you are trying to make the best of this move.
I pray all goes well for you and that your new “house” will soon feel like “home”.
thinking of you! (((hugs))
I am soooo excited for you! Can’t wait for pictures!
I am soooo excited for you! Can’t wait for pictures!
How exciting! I like to think that a new home means you can buy new stuff, my checking account would disagree with me!:)Good luck with the move!
How exciting! I like to think that a new home means you can buy new stuff, my checking account would disagree with me!:)Good luck with the move!
I hope all goes well for you today. I’m so excited and can’t wait to see pics of the new place once you are in.
I hope all goes well for you today. I’m so excited and can’t wait to see pics of the new place once you are in.
The memories are the best things to have. Starting new means new memories. I can’t wait to see what the new house has in store!
The memories are the best things to have. Starting new means new memories. I can’t wait to see what the new house has in store!
It is wonderful that you will always have those memories even when you leave. You can now make wonderful new memories in your new home!
It is wonderful that you will always have those memories even when you leave. You can now make wonderful new memories in your new home!
It’s such a perfect time for new beginnings in a new home that will hug you and love you just as much.
Steph
It’s such a perfect time for new beginnings in a new home that will hug you and love you just as much.
Steph
I can relate to saying goodbye to your well-loved home. We moved 3 years ago (to another state) and I still have very fond memories of our home. Like you, it was where I brought my babies home to and it was cozy and warm and grew with us as we grew. I hope your adventure is big and exciting! Can’t wait to see pics of your new home!
I can relate to saying goodbye to your well-loved home. We moved 3 years ago (to another state) and I still have very fond memories of our home. Like you, it was where I brought my babies home to and it was cozy and warm and grew with us as we grew. I hope your adventure is big and exciting! Can’t wait to see pics of your new home!
This post gave me chills because I started to think about all the memories in my house too. Both of my sons have learned to walk and talk here, and so on…
But in your case, there will be so many new memories in the new house. It will be wonderful!
This post gave me chills because I started to think about all the memories in my house too. Both of my sons have learned to walk and talk here, and so on…
But in your case, there will be so many new memories in the new house. It will be wonderful!
Hopefully you took lots of pictures of the old house to help remember. Now you can start making new memories.
Hope the move goes smoothly! Can’t wait to see pictures of the new house!!
Hopefully you took lots of pictures of the old house to help remember. Now you can start making new memories.
Hope the move goes smoothly! Can’t wait to see pictures of the new house!!
Amazing is all I can say…never is there a time that I read your blog and cannot “feel” what you are feeling through your wonderful words. Happy, sad, good, bad…I feel it all and I am so very very excited for you and your family. Cherish all of your memories..hold them dear to your heart and…..rock on sista!!! I am praying for GOOD TIMES, MUCH HAPPINESS and lots and lots of love in your new home!!!!!
Thank you for your heart Beth!!! Love The Goodwins!!!!
Amazing is all I can say…never is there a time that I read your blog and cannot “feel” what you are feeling through your wonderful words. Happy, sad, good, bad…I feel it all and I am so very very excited for you and your family. Cherish all of your memories..hold them dear to your heart and…..rock on sista!!! I am praying for GOOD TIMES, MUCH HAPPINESS and lots and lots of love in your new home!!!!!
Thank you for your heart Beth!!! Love The Goodwins!!!!
Good luck with the move and making memories in your new home!
Good luck with the move and making memories in your new home!
Hi Beth, congrats on your move and bet of luck getting into your new home. I wish you all the best and hope your move is uneventful =)
Hi Beth, congrats on your move and bet of luck getting into your new home. I wish you all the best and hope your move is uneventful =)
Yes, a new adventure. Great things are going to happen. I can feel it.
Yes, a new adventure. Great things are going to happen. I can feel it.
Very well put. And I can’t wait to here all the new memories that you’ll create in the new place!
Very well put. And I can’t wait to here all the new memories that you’ll create in the new place!
Very well put. And I can’t wait to here all the new memories that you’ll create in the new place!
Very well put. And I can’t wait to here all the new memories that you’ll create in the new place!
Very well put. And I can’t wait to here all the new memories that you’ll create in the new place!
Very well put. And I can’t wait to here all the new memories that you’ll create in the new place!
“I say good bye to this house, with sadness, but no regrets. It is time to move on, to create new memories in a new home, a new adventure. We are parting with such sweet sorrow, but we are definitely looking forward to tomorrow.”
that was so beautifully written. hugs.
“I say good bye to this house, with sadness, but no regrets. It is time to move on, to create new memories in a new home, a new adventure. We are parting with such sweet sorrow, but we are definitely looking forward to tomorrow.”
that was so beautifully written. hugs.