Brian came home yesterday, two days earlier than planned and now when I see him I think he’s a Super Hero – because yesterday?  I went to lunch with this girl (she lives in the same small town as me and that makes me feel like I won the lottery).  Then last night I had dinner with my friends.  It was awesome.  Like so awesome because I was not stuck at home all day long and I socialized and I feel like a thousand pounds has been lifted off of my chest.

I was beginning to feel like a prisoner.  And the thing is, while Brian was gone, the kids were good, enjoyable for the most part.  They slept well, ate well, fought well, played well, tattled well and sometimes, they did get on my nerves, but that’s to be expected.  I’m sure I got on their nerves, too.  Particularly when I would not let them get Swiss Cake Rolls at the grocery store.

It’s amazing to me how quickly time is passing, it’s just unreal.  I feel like I wake up in the morning (at eight, nine and once even 10:00!) and before I know it, it’s bedtime (which lately equals 2 in the morning – Thanks, Be Design!)  I stay up late, I eat ice cream, I work a lot.

I mean, a lot.

But that’s okay, I’ve been busy.  It’s what I wanted.

I guess I’m feeling a little bit down because I thought that if I filled every waking moment with something, that I would feel less sad. or I would be too busy to feel the sadness.  But that’s not the case.

I am sad and that’s okay.  I so badly need to be okay with my sadness and not try to fight it.  It’s just that being sad is so….sad. 

Today, I need to focus on the good things, the great things.  My sister-in-law and her family adopted a beautiful baby boy, he came home yesterday, my other sister-in-law gave birth to a baby boy just hours ago.  I think about the little toes and fingers and the life that is being brought into their families, and the love that goes along with it, well, I can’t help but feel good about that.  Two nephews in one week!  Not many people can say that.  We are blessed, for sure.

Here are some pictures that I took over this past week, more reminders of the good in my life.

There’s beauty on my deck:

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And in my yard:

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And near my home, at the perfect time of day:

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(if you look real close, you can see the Chicago skyline, way in the distance.)

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And in the sky:

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And a double rainbow.

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But mostly:

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No matter how hard life can be, it’s always so very, very good.

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