I haven’t written about this yet, but recently I could feel that my thyroid levels were off.  The weekend of the 20th, I started to feel the sensation I had last year where it feels like someone is choking me, plus I keep gaining weight like it’s my job, I’m so tired, very depressed, etc. etc.  My doctor faxed an order to my lab to draw blood last Monday and on Tuesday the 22nd, the doctor’s office called and said my levels were "wacky" and that the doctor wanted to see me.  I was quite pleased because there is nothing better than feeling like crap and then figuring out that it’s not my fault.  Unfortunately, they could not get me in to see the doctor until yesterday.

After my post about Prozac and expressing the feelings of feeling very flat, I realized I probably should have mentioned that my thyroid was off in that post.  I did talk to my doctor about backing up the dose a little bit and he advised against doing that and thought that by increasing the thyroid right now it may help my feelings of ambivalence, but that we would revisit the Prozac levels in six weeks.  My hope is to stop taking anti-depressants all together, sometime during the fall.

So, my doctor increased my thyroid medication which makes me hopeful and happy.  Two things I like feeling, but one thing I don’t like feeling is fat.  I hope this helps me stop gaining weight faster than a freight train and allows me to lose the weight through joining Weight Watchers or some other crap like that. 

While I was at the doctor I told him about this foot problem I was having where when I walk barefoot it feels like I have fluid in the ball of my foot, it’s very uncomfortable and then when I wear my running shoes my toes fall asleep.  Did you know I can’t clean without my running shoes on?  I can’t do anything productive without them on, you should try it sometime.  Anyway, the foot issue is very annoying and honestly, it’s painful.  He blamed my thyroid. 

That thyroid is nothing but a trouble maker, you know, when it’s not working properly, it controls everything from weight gain, to feeling psychotic to my toes falling asleep.  I can’t wait to get this back under control…again.

My soul sister is making me call my endocrinologist in Chicago today, she’s very bossy and very tiny, even at 35 weeks pregnant, so I figure I better listen to her otherwise she’ll call me every single day to tell me why I need to call this doctor and she’ll probably yell obscenities, too.  All of these things are reasons why I love this person so so so much and reasons why I’ll call my endocrinologist in Chicago.

So, there you have it, the inside scoop, probably the real reason why I haven’t felt like blogging all that much or doing anything for that matter, but I see a light at the end of the tunnel, it’s very little, but it’s there and I just know that the sunlight will soon be shining on me.

And I can’t wait.