You know what I like about New Jersey? The fact that it can be called Jersey and it sounds so hip and cool.
Where you headed?
Jersey.
The Jersey Shore.
AWESOME.
Know what I don’t like about New Jersey? You can’t take left turns. It’s true. I know most of you have never been to New Jersey and didn’t even know this little fact about this little state. YOU CAN’T TURN LEFT. It’s very, very strange. If you’re destination is on the left, you actually have to pass it, find a stoplight guided u-turn and drive back to the place you missed. But it’s not my state and I’m not here very much so I guess I won’t judge, right? There’s a Dunkin’ Donuts down the road and that means we are going to be just fine.
We are here for a wedding. Brian’s cousin is getting married today and we are all very excited about this event. I’ll be wearing a dress that I really like and it was only the 79th dress I tried on. My friends at Shabby Apple sent me this dress to wear to the wedding, it arrived and it was so soft and vivid and beautiful. But my belly got in the way for it to fit properly, so I can’t wear it. I was pretty disappointed, especially when I had to go dress shopping which is not fun when you are fat and completely unhappy with how you look.
I’m thinking I need to seriously do Weight Watchers and when I say seriously do Weight Watchers, not only do I mean, you know, actually COUNTING POINTS, but I also need to attend meetings. Every week. Which isn’t a big deal, except I feel silly? like a failure? embarrassed? Since I was a lifetime member for so long and here I am, big and round again. And it’s not like I can stand on the scale and say “YES BUT I WAS PREGNANT WITH TWINS AND I WAS DOING GREAT WITH MY WEIGHT AND THEN I LOST THEM AND THEN I DIDN’T EAT FOR WEEKS BECAUSE FOOD DIDN’T MATTER TO ME AND I LOST TOO MUCH WEIGHT AND THEN I STARTED EATING TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER AND I HAVEN’T STOPPED AND NOW I FEEL LIKE A LOSER WHICH MAKES ME EAT MORE, WHICH MAKES ME GAIN WEIGHT, WHICH MAKES ME FEELS WORSE ABOUT MYSELF AND THEN I EAT MORE.”
I just want to go to a meeting and not have anyone ask me any questions. Maybe I could get a shirt that says “yes, I know, but SHUTUP.”
But I won’t, it will be one of those life experiences that I look back on and think “you know, that was so hard but I overcame it and I’m so glad I did because I don’t hate the way I look anymore, I did something about it and I really do love myself.”
When I put it that way it doesn’t sound so bad, afterall.
Good luck! Yo can do it. I have never joined but I hear it has helprd so many people it would be worth the try.
Have fun at the wedding
Good luck! Yo can do it. I have never joined but I hear it has helprd so many people it would be worth the try.
Have fun at the wedding
Beth – YOU CAN DO IT!! I know you can, and … as a former WW member too, you know that no one is secretly asking. Everyone there is in the same boat for one reason or another – they use food as an outlet for their emotions. But, having said that, I get where you are coming from because those EXACT SAME THOUGHTS went through my head too when I attended.
About two weeks ago, hubby and I went to a health check clinic where your glucose, cholesterol, blood pressure, weight etc was checked and an assessment was done. You know where I was assessed points? My waist. Yep: apparently my waist girth was not good enough for them. I felt defensive and felt that I had to explain to them that my waist was fabulous given the fact that I was pretty much pregnant for the past four years straight despite only having the two energetic children running around beside me. My hubby then looked at me and said that I didn’t need to explain anything and that he loved me just the way that I am. Still though …. it was a sensitive issue for me (apparently).
The point is that you CAN do it with WW. If you want a cyber buddy/mentor, then count me is for I am all over supporting you on this. And, I promise that I will be much more diligent in being your mentor than I am with blogging of late.
Hope that you are having fun at the wedding and I just know that you look fabulous. I am still lobbying though to get you and your family up here to do a photo shoot with my family ……
Beth – YOU CAN DO IT!! I know you can, and … as a former WW member too, you know that no one is secretly asking. Everyone there is in the same boat for one reason or another – they use food as an outlet for their emotions. But, having said that, I get where you are coming from because those EXACT SAME THOUGHTS went through my head too when I attended.
About two weeks ago, hubby and I went to a health check clinic where your glucose, cholesterol, blood pressure, weight etc was checked and an assessment was done. You know where I was assessed points? My waist. Yep: apparently my waist girth was not good enough for them. I felt defensive and felt that I had to explain to them that my waist was fabulous given the fact that I was pretty much pregnant for the past four years straight despite only having the two energetic children running around beside me. My hubby then looked at me and said that I didn’t need to explain anything and that he loved me just the way that I am. Still though …. it was a sensitive issue for me (apparently).
The point is that you CAN do it with WW. If you want a cyber buddy/mentor, then count me is for I am all over supporting you on this. And, I promise that I will be much more diligent in being your mentor than I am with blogging of late.
Hope that you are having fun at the wedding and I just know that you look fabulous. I am still lobbying though to get you and your family up here to do a photo shoot with my family ……
You can do it, beth. I know you can. and one day, sometime soon, you will be back to where you want to be, physically speaking. You are beautiful all around, whether you see it or not.
BTW, I love your blog, and not because you are Christy’s other BFF. I love how you write- you are articulate, funny, you share parts of yourself that you just don”t have to share and it all makes you SO REAL.
You can do it, beth. I know you can. and one day, sometime soon, you will be back to where you want to be, physically speaking. You are beautiful all around, whether you see it or not.
BTW, I love your blog, and not because you are Christy’s other BFF. I love how you write- you are articulate, funny, you share parts of yourself that you just don”t have to share and it all makes you SO REAL.
HAHA! My husband is from New Jersey. I never understood the jug handles for left turns or the roundabouts!
You can definitely succeed at WW. I know it’s hard but you are amazing, bright, funny and determined!
HAHA! My husband is from New Jersey. I never understood the jug handles for left turns or the roundabouts!
You can definitely succeed at WW. I know it’s hard but you are amazing, bright, funny and determined!
Ok I’m just going to say it…….. STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP OVER THE WAY YOU LOOK AND HOW MUCH YOU WEIGH!!!! Every time you pick on yourself for how you look you are letting those people who judge others for how much they weigh and how they look win. Plus every time your children hear you say bad things about yourself ( weight, etc) they are hearing ” I’m no one if I’m fat. That I must be skinny to be a person and excepted in this world”. I’m not saying to not be or get healthy, we should all do that. What I am saying is stop measuring yourself up against the media measuring stick.
Embrace yourself and your body for how it looks and feels. I know it’s easier said then done, trust me I know. I spent so many years ,like you beating myself up for how I looked and how much I weighed. I tried so my diets and failed at them all. I hid my body behind baggy clothes, I used every excuse in the book to not wear a bathing suit. The list goes on and on. It wasn’t until I embraced my body for how it looked that I started to like my curves again. I went to my closet and piece by piece I went through all of my clothes finding ones that worked with my body and tossed out all the ones that didn’t. I slowly went back to the mall and bought new clothes that fit me and weren’t baggy sacks. And guess what one of those items was a bathing suit!
Ok I’m just going to say it…….. STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP OVER THE WAY YOU LOOK AND HOW MUCH YOU WEIGH!!!! Every time you pick on yourself for how you look you are letting those people who judge others for how much they weigh and how they look win. Plus every time your children hear you say bad things about yourself ( weight, etc) they are hearing ” I’m no one if I’m fat. That I must be skinny to be a person and excepted in this world”. I’m not saying to not be or get healthy, we should all do that. What I am saying is stop measuring yourself up against the media measuring stick.
Embrace yourself and your body for how it looks and feels. I know it’s easier said then done, trust me I know. I spent so many years ,like you beating myself up for how I looked and how much I weighed. I tried so my diets and failed at them all. I hid my body behind baggy clothes, I used every excuse in the book to not wear a bathing suit. The list goes on and on. It wasn’t until I embraced my body for how it looked that I started to like my curves again. I went to my closet and piece by piece I went through all of my clothes finding ones that worked with my body and tossed out all the ones that didn’t. I slowly went back to the mall and bought new clothes that fit me and weren’t baggy sacks. And guess what one of those items was a bathing suit!
Yes, here in Jersey we call those turn-right-to-turn-left things jug handles, and most of the traffic circles are gone (but not all of them.) And yes, there’s a Dunkin Donuts on every block, sometimes two. Welcome!
Yes, here in Jersey we call those turn-right-to-turn-left things jug handles, and most of the traffic circles are gone (but not all of them.) And yes, there’s a Dunkin Donuts on every block, sometimes two. Welcome!
Not going to address the Weight Watchers, but going to say, ‘please have some pizza for me’. My husband is from NJ and that is about the only thing that gets me through visits there. That and going to the shore. Have fun!
Not going to address the Weight Watchers, but going to say, ‘please have some pizza for me’. My husband is from NJ and that is about the only thing that gets me through visits there. That and going to the shore. Have fun!
So…you wanna see if we can find a meeting somewhere in between me and you? I’d be willing to drive 5 hours just to know that there was one person there with me to hold my hand…
I hope you have fun at the wedding!
So…you wanna see if we can find a meeting somewhere in between me and you? I’d be willing to drive 5 hours just to know that there was one person there with me to hold my hand…
I hope you have fun at the wedding!
I have been to Jersey a few times, and while there are many things I love, there are many things I CAN’T STAND! The turn right to go left is one of them! The smell is the other. Enjoy your trip!
You will do great. going to meetings might be something you need. If people start talking smack, I’ll come kick their behinds!! I need to get in a fight anyway. It’s cathartic for me, or something!
I have been to Jersey a few times, and while there are many things I love, there are many things I CAN’T STAND! The turn right to go left is one of them! The smell is the other. Enjoy your trip!
You will do great. going to meetings might be something you need. If people start talking smack, I’ll come kick their behinds!! I need to get in a fight anyway. It’s cathartic for me, or something!
That is a beautiful dress and you will look amazing in it!
That is a beautiful dress and you will look amazing in it!
I would love to go to Jersey, even if you cannot make left turns… but that is strange. I sympathize completely with the weight frustrations, but do not give up! It takes forever, and sometimes we go backwards, but keep trying. I have been working on it especially hard this last month and starving and working out has netted me a 1 pound loss. Very frustrating, but keep it up! It is worth it to be fit… so they tell me…
I would love to go to Jersey, even if you cannot make left turns… but that is strange. I sympathize completely with the weight frustrations, but do not give up! It takes forever, and sometimes we go backwards, but keep trying. I have been working on it especially hard this last month and starving and working out has netted me a 1 pound loss. Very frustrating, but keep it up! It is worth it to be fit… so they tell me…
I would totally order at least 5 of those shirts. Preferably in extra large.
I would totally order at least 5 of those shirts. Preferably in extra large.
You can do it.
I know you can, when you put your mind to it, you can do anything.
Look, design….photography…weight loss.
You are a walking ad for Nike, just do it.
Me. I’m gonna just do it and grab another chocolate chip cookie
You can do it.
I know you can, when you put your mind to it, you can do anything.
Look, design….photography…weight loss.
You are a walking ad for Nike, just do it.
Me. I’m gonna just do it and grab another chocolate chip cookie
Yeah… dude I need one of those shirts.
Yeah… dude I need one of those shirts.
GO BETH!!! You can do it! I recently lost 54 pounds since April 19 and have never felt better. A big part of that was admitting my weight…to myself and everyone around me. I was 220 pounds and absolutely miserable. (my baby excuse was now TWO) Once I said it I vowed to never go over that weight and to never be at that weight again! Once you get started and start to see results it will be a new kind of high for you. It feels amazing!!! I have 20-25 more to lose but there is no doubt in my mind that I can do it. Once you get going you will be amazed at how addictive it becomes to see that scale. I wish you the very best of luck as you travel down this weight loss journey! YOU CAN DO IT!!!
GO BETH!!! You can do it! I recently lost 54 pounds since April 19 and have never felt better. A big part of that was admitting my weight…to myself and everyone around me. I was 220 pounds and absolutely miserable. (my baby excuse was now TWO) Once I said it I vowed to never go over that weight and to never be at that weight again! Once you get started and start to see results it will be a new kind of high for you. It feels amazing!!! I have 20-25 more to lose but there is no doubt in my mind that I can do it. Once you get going you will be amazed at how addictive it becomes to see that scale. I wish you the very best of luck as you travel down this weight loss journey! YOU CAN DO IT!!!
I am originally from NJ and driving there is pretty weird with all the “jug handles” as they are called (at least when I lived there over 16 years ago).
I am originally from NJ and driving there is pretty weird with all the “jug handles” as they are called (at least when I lived there over 16 years ago).
Who needs to turn left anyway. If it’s not on the right, then you can live without it!
I’m right there with you sistah. I have been half-assing WW for the past month and am not too happy about it. I will totally make you one of those shirts so you can wear it to your meetings. You should. Fo’ REAL.
I miss you. So much.
Who needs to turn left anyway. If it’s not on the right, then you can live without it!
I’m right there with you sistah. I have been half-assing WW for the past month and am not too happy about it. I will totally make you one of those shirts so you can wear it to your meetings. You should. Fo’ REAL.
I miss you. So much.
Have fun at the wedding and good luck with Weight Watchers. You can do anything you set your mind to!
Have fun at the wedding and good luck with Weight Watchers. You can do anything you set your mind to!
That dress is beautiful! I just might have to borrow it sometime, if you’re into that sort of thing…
Miss you.
Steph
That dress is beautiful! I just might have to borrow it sometime, if you’re into that sort of thing…
Miss you.
Steph
Remember you’re tackling one hurdle at a time! Don’t be too hard on yourself– itm will coe in time. I hope you had fun at the wedding!
Remember you’re tackling one hurdle at a time! Don’t be too hard on yourself– itm will coe in time. I hope you had fun at the wedding!
Why do you have to explain anything? Unless Weight Watchers has changed, they don’t require you to explain your weight gain.
Go to the meeting with your head held high. You are going to make the changes you need to so you can feel better about yourself. Be proud of that.
Why do you have to explain anything? Unless Weight Watchers has changed, they don’t require you to explain your weight gain.
Go to the meeting with your head held high. You are going to make the changes you need to so you can feel better about yourself. Be proud of that.
no one has to know you are a returning lifetime member…no one! Keep your head up and go…you won’t regret it!
no one has to know you are a returning lifetime member…no one! Keep your head up and go…you won’t regret it!
Ok, how could you be in NJ and not call me?!?!?!?!?!
Ok, how could you be in NJ and not call me?!?!?!?!?!
It is so hard, isn’t it? I constantly want to do the WW thing, too, because let’s face it… baby weight is no longer baby weight when said baby is 19 months. But I just feel so weird about it, like I can’t fathom that although I spent all of high school and most of college wearing a size 1 or 2, I’m now in need of WW, and I don’t totally want to admit it!
It is so hard, isn’t it? I constantly want to do the WW thing, too, because let’s face it… baby weight is no longer baby weight when said baby is 19 months. But I just feel so weird about it, like I can’t fathom that although I spent all of high school and most of college wearing a size 1 or 2, I’m now in need of WW, and I don’t totally want to admit it!
Where in Jersey are you? My family lives near Philly. I go to Jersey at least once a year and I love it! Mainly for the culture more so than anything else. But I never, ever drive when I’m there, because the crazy drivers and their oddball turning lanes scare the living daylights out of me!
Where in Jersey are you? My family lives near Philly. I go to Jersey at least once a year and I love it! Mainly for the culture more so than anything else. But I never, ever drive when I’m there, because the crazy drivers and their oddball turning lanes scare the living daylights out of me!