This week has been so incredible. I can’t go into detail right now, but what’s been going on in my life is so exciting and surreal. Soon I’ll share with all of you what has been going on with me, it’s amazing. I am in awe of how surrounded by love I feel. I was talking to Christy last night, (AT MIDNIGHT! We are party animals!) and I was telling her how loved I feel, that between this person, this person, this person, this person, this person, this person (all of these people have gone out of their way for me this week alone). Not to mention Brian and my family and all of you and the love that you share with me, that I could just throw up love.
I will tell you that is has to do with photography and I will also tell you that I think what is happening is meant to be. I think there are two little angels guiding me in this direction and as scared and uncertain as I am, I’m going to let them lead me or sometimes push me. I need to trust them. They are definitely leading and pushing, that’s for sure.
Sometimes, during my rare moments of silence, usually while lying in bed or driving in the car, I think about how sad I am that James and Jake have died. I think about how we have this darkness in our lives, this emptiness in our hearts that we can’t shake, nor will we ever be able to, I don’t think. And when I let my mind go back to those first days, weeks, months of despair and tears and heartache, I can’t believe that this has happened to us at all.
It makes me hate 2008. This year, whenever someone says “oh, he was born in 2008” or “we were married in 2008,” my heart will sink and I’ll go back to that year that was so hard.
But I’m thinking that it’s also going to be year of greatness, too. The year of great love, great friendship, great family, amazing business ventures and intense gratitude. Sometimes I wonder if all of this was in front of me before and I just didn’t realize it. I have so many questions, questions that will never be answered. Sometimes that’s okay and sometimes it’s not. Either way, we have no choice but to live life not so blindly, it’s amazing the colors that you see if you are actually looking.
I need to continue listening, continue moving, continue loving and missing and continue living this life as wholly and purposefully as ever before. And I can do that knowing I have two little angels by my side.
And all of you, too.
Photographs. And angels. Where do each dwell? In what we see. How we love. In what is important. Exquisite. And in our souls…
What a beautiful combination for the most beautiful, beautiful woman…
Photographs. And angels. Where do each dwell? In what we see. How we love. In what is important. Exquisite. And in our souls…
What a beautiful combination for the most beautiful, beautiful woman…
OMG, you have me just curious as heck. I can’t wait to hear details! I am so, so glad good things are happening for you.
I think you are lucky to have such a wonderful support system behind you with that awesome group of girls!
OMG, you have me just curious as heck. I can’t wait to hear details! I am so, so glad good things are happening for you.
I think you are lucky to have such a wonderful support system behind you with that awesome group of girls!
Isn’t it amazing how it all works out!?! Good luck with the photography, I wish you lived here so you could take lots and lots of pictures for me! Continue doing what you love and loving what you do!
Isn’t it amazing how it all works out!?! Good luck with the photography, I wish you lived here so you could take lots and lots of pictures for me! Continue doing what you love and loving what you do!
I’m so stinkin’ happy for you, I can hardly stand it!! I can’t wait to hear all the details…
I’m so stinkin’ happy for you, I can hardly stand it!! I can’t wait to hear all the details…
Wow … just dying to hear all the details! But man, I can hear you breaking through the grief … and that is amazing. Remember when we all kept saying hang in there? You did.
Wow … just dying to hear all the details! But man, I can hear you breaking through the grief … and that is amazing. Remember when we all kept saying hang in there? You did.
Midnight??..you party animals indeed.
You are loved and I do think you are being guided to things that have been in your heart along. Like you said, You needed that little tap, push, nudge for you to see it all.
xoxo~CE
Midnight??..you party animals indeed.
You are loved and I do think you are being guided to things that have been in your heart along. Like you said, You needed that little tap, push, nudge for you to see it all.
xoxo~CE
Beth, I’m thrilled you have had an awesome week and that you are enjoying the lemonade you’ve made with those lemons. Can’t wait to hear your news!
Beth, I’m thrilled you have had an awesome week and that you are enjoying the lemonade you’ve made with those lemons. Can’t wait to hear your news!
woohoo, I am excited for you…can’t wait to hear all about it.
woohoo, I am excited for you…can’t wait to hear all about it.
I’m so happy for the love coming your way. You have inspired me A LOT throughout the past few months Beth. Thank you, can’t wait to hear about it:)
I’m so happy for the love coming your way. You have inspired me A LOT throughout the past few months Beth. Thank you, can’t wait to hear about it:)
I can’t wait to see what it is, you little temptress
I’m excited for you already. I hope that 2008 ends in such an amazing way for you because you so deserve it. Now, how soon can you spill the beans?
I can’t wait to see what it is, you little temptress
I’m excited for you already. I hope that 2008 ends in such an amazing way for you because you so deserve it. Now, how soon can you spill the beans?
Surreal … sublime.
Waiting for details and expecting great things from and for you.
Desto
Surreal … sublime.
Waiting for details and expecting great things from and for you.
Desto
Can’t wait to hear the details and the great great new coming our way from you. That brings happiness to me knowing what a wonderful week you have had.
Hugs Beth,
Shantel
Can’t wait to hear the details and the great great new coming our way from you. That brings happiness to me knowing what a wonderful week you have had.
Hugs Beth,
Shantel
Curious and curiouser!
Congratulations on whatever your HUGE news is!
Curious and curiouser!
Congratulations on whatever your HUGE news is!
You are very loved… ex-TREME-ly loved. Even by those of us who have never met in person…
I’m just very grateful that I got to be part of the big thing…
And you know what? It’s going to be great. You’re going to be great.
And I’m just going to sit back and enjoy watching it all unfold, knowing that I was not only a part of it, but know that I know some pretty kick-ass people on the net.
(Now, don’t tell my pastor that I just said that…)
You are very loved… ex-TREME-ly loved. Even by those of us who have never met in person…
I’m just very grateful that I got to be part of the big thing…
And you know what? It’s going to be great. You’re going to be great.
And I’m just going to sit back and enjoy watching it all unfold, knowing that I was not only a part of it, but know that I know some pretty kick-ass people on the net.
(Now, don’t tell my pastor that I just said that…)
Don’t throw up love. It stains the carpet. Then Cupid never lets you live it down.
Glad things are going well – but no more cliffhanger postings!!! We want the full story, the ultimate details and heavy on any bloggy gossip.
Don’t throw up love. It stains the carpet. Then Cupid never lets you live it down.
Glad things are going well – but no more cliffhanger postings!!! We want the full story, the ultimate details and heavy on any bloggy gossip.
I love this post so much that I’m going to forgive you for not knowing the name of my blog.
S, S, MF.
I love this post so much that I’m going to forgive you for not knowing the name of my blog.
S, S, MF.
Oh, A, you are so particular. (LMAO…GOING TO FIX IT NOW, M’KAY?)
Oh, A, you are so particular. (LMAO…GOING TO FIX IT NOW, M’KAY?)
I am so proud of you, and love you so much. I am so glad you can feel it.
Steph
I am so proud of you, and love you so much. I am so glad you can feel it.
Steph
Ooooh the suspense, I’m so excited to hear about the new and wonderful things that have happened this past week.
Ooooh the suspense, I’m so excited to hear about the new and wonderful things that have happened this past week.
You know where you stand with me, right? Xmas…:)
You know where you stand with me, right? Xmas…:)
I am so glad you are having this kind of joy and excitement! You deserve it. I cannot wait to see what is happening! Also, your kitchen, I wanna see it. You rock.
I am so glad you are having this kind of joy and excitement! You deserve it. I cannot wait to see what is happening! Also, your kitchen, I wanna see it. You rock.