I woke up this morning and remembered it was your birthday. As I was brushing my teeth, with you and Ariel still asleep in your rooms, I looked out of the bathroom window and saw snow gently falling and a soft pink light. I walk downstairs to make coffee, but instead, I grabbed my camera and took a picture of the beautiful sunrise that I know was meant for you.
As we drove your sister to school, I could not help but to notice how beautiful everything was. The now soft yellow sun was peeking through snow covered trees. Everything that surrounded us was covered by the purest white I have ever seen. It was beautiful and peaceful. I looked in the rear view mirror and saw you looking out of the window with a smile on your face.
At that moment, you took my breath away, just like you did the first time I saw you. Five years ago today.
When I reflect back on this past year, it makes me so sad that it was a year of such sadness. I wonder if you’ll look back on your childhood someday and think of your Mom crying. That isn’t what I want, I only want happiness for you, always. And I want to apologize for being so sad, but something tells me you understand. There is something deep within you that I think gets it. I can remember, back on March 2nd, the day after the memorial service, I was sitting in the living room with your two aunts and your Grandma and I finally allowed myself to cry, to really, really cry in front of people. You walked into the room, climbed on my lap and in my ear you whispered “I got you, I got you, Mama.” And you, at the tender age of four, made me feel better.
I used to whisper that in your ear when you were a baby and you were crying. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think you’d say the same thing to me.
You did have me, you still have me, and you’ll always have me. Which makes me the luckiest person in the world, because I’ve got you, too.
Today we celebrate you and the bright, sensitive, funny, picky, loving, feisty boy that you are. Something tells me this is going to be a very, very good year. I can’t wait to share it with you.
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Last night, I was able to sit down with you for your annual birthday interview:
Mom: So, Racecar, what is tomorrow?
Racecar: My birthday.
Mom: How old are you going to be?
Racecar: Five
Mom: What do you want to do on your birthday?
Racecar: I don’t know.
Mom: What do you want for breakfast?
Racecar: Cinnamon toast crunch? (Mom: we don’t have any) Fruit loops? (Mom: we don’t have any) Apple jacks? (Mom: we have Apple Jacks!) (we went to Dunkin’ Donut and he got a chocolate donut with sprinkles. Red, white and blue sprinkles)
Mom: What did you love about being four?
Racecar: hmmm….I don’t know.
Mom: Who is your favorite person?
Racecar: Jose.
Mom: What is your favorite color?
Racecar: Green and blue.
Mom: What’s your favorite show?
Racecar: Spongebob
Mom: What’s your favorite food?
Racecar: Cinnamon Toast Crunch
Mom: What’s your favorite vegetable?
Racecar: Green beans
Mom: Your favorite fruit?
Racecar: Pineapple.
Mom: Would you rather have a donut or a grilled cheese sandwich?
Racecar: Donut.
Mom: Tomorrow, on your birthday, can I kiss you 100 times?
Racecar: No.
Mom: Why not?
Racecar: uh, because maybe you could spank me and I’ll watch out.
Mom: But, I want to kiss you 100 times.
Racecar: No, not 100, how about ten times?
Mom: That’s fine. How many hours can I hug you?
Racecar: One hour.
Mom: How much do you love your Mom?
Racecar: super duper super duper super duper super duper super duper much.
Mom: How much do you love Ariel?
Racecar: None.
Mom: How much do you love Daddy?
Racecar: A little bit. I like him 99 and I like you 100.
Mom: Who’s better at Wii bowling, you or Daddy?
Racecar: Me.
Mom: What about Wii Golf?
Racecar: Daddy
Mom: What about Indiana Jones on the Wii?
Racecar: Me. and Daddy.
Mom: What do you want for your birthday?
Racecar: I don’t know.
Mom: Last week, you mentioned that you wanted your ears pierced, do you still want them pierced?
Racecar: Like at the girls’ store or the boys’ store? Cause I only want them pierced at the boys’ store.
Mom: How excited are you to be turning five?
Racecar: so excited. super duper super duper super much. Like 100 million thousand much.
Mom: Do you know how much your Mommy loves you?
Racecar: No.
Mom: Well, I love you so so so so so so so so so much.
Racecar: Man, that’s a lot of so’s.
You have no idea.
(this photo taken by CE)
Kiss and hug him now, because he’s soon going to roll his eyes and run the other way! Cute post, warms my heart.
For a quick warm up the Soup’s on this week at http://www.runswithscissorsjackeeg.blogspot.com Quick recipes for hearty soups all week long. We NW Indiana folks have to stick together with this deep freeze/snow happening!
Kiss and hug him now, because he’s soon going to roll his eyes and run the other way! Cute post, warms my heart.
For a quick warm up the Soup’s on this week at http://www.runswithscissorsjackeeg.blogspot.com Quick recipes for hearty soups all week long. We NW Indiana folks have to stick together with this deep freeze/snow happening!
Aw man, you got me crying with what he said in your ear! What a beautiful post … nice, special memories for your kids down the road. And when they’re older they will just love this stuff!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACECAR! OFFICIALLY A WHOLE HAND OLD NOW!
Diane
Aw man, you got me crying with what he said in your ear! What a beautiful post … nice, special memories for your kids down the road. And when they’re older they will just love this stuff!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACECAR! OFFICIALLY A WHOLE HAND OLD NOW!
Diane
Happy Birthday Racecar!!
This was such a touching post. I love the idea of a birthday interview. I may have to steal it. My little girl turns 4 in Feb.
Happy Birthday Racecar!!
This was such a touching post. I love the idea of a birthday interview. I may have to steal it. My little girl turns 4 in Feb.
Happy (belated) 5th Birthday Racecar! Your interview idea is awesome–I think I will do that for my son next month when he turns five!
P.S. I loved his answers! LOL.
Happy (belated) 5th Birthday Racecar! Your interview idea is awesome–I think I will do that for my son next month when he turns five!
P.S. I loved his answers! LOL.
Happy Birthday to your sweet son. I hope the year ahead is very special for him.
Happy Birthday to your sweet son. I hope the year ahead is very special for him.
Happy belated birthday Race Car! You and my daughter have the same birthday and she turned 5 yesterday too!!!!!!!!!
Happy belated birthday Race Car! You and my daughter have the same birthday and she turned 5 yesterday too!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday (a day late) Racecar!!
Good choice on favorite veggies and fruit. Those are my favorites too!
Happy Birthday (a day late) Racecar!!
Good choice on favorite veggies and fruit. Those are my favorites too!
Happy Happy 5th Birthday to one of the cutest little guys I’ve ever seen. What an awesome tribute to your beautiful son. I love his answers…Is he really getting his ears pierced?
Happy Happy 5th Birthday to one of the cutest little guys I’ve ever seen. What an awesome tribute to your beautiful son. I love his answers…Is he really getting his ears pierced?
He’s got you…
Happy Birthday Racecar!! Hope your day was wonderful.
He’s got you…
Happy Birthday Racecar!! Hope your day was wonderful.
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