Did I tell you that last Friday night I had insomnia? It was HORRENDOUS. I went to bed at one and laid awake until 5:30 in the morning. I thought I was going to die. Erin, Sarah and I had planned a Saturday morning walk, Sarah and I are trying to watch our girlish figures and we are trying to induce Erin who is about to have a baby any minute now.
I had to miss the walk because Mama needs her sleep. I was so sad because I missed out on their walking adventure.
Couldn’t you just pinch and squeeze and squish on them all day long?
Last November we had all planned a night out at a charity event. Erin was like “I’m not going to drink because I had a migraine and I took migraine medicine.“ We were all like “awww…poor thing, how do you feel now?”
I emailed Erin the next day and I said something to the tune of “I’d like to go on record and say that you are in fact pregnant and your migraine story was a lie. YOU BIG PREGNANT LIAR.”
She replied back confirming my beliefs and telling me how awesome and brilliant and beautiful I was.
or maybe just confirming my beliefs, whatever.
Her big day is coming, LIKE SOON. She doesn’t know what she’s having which just adds to this excitement, don’t you think?
I plan to be in the room with her, camera in hand, hopefully offering her something at some point during labor that can be of use to her. I’m excited and honored to be there with her.
One year ago I did not know Erin, but when you connect, you connect and the amount of time you know someone just doesn’t make a difference.
We connect.
One year ago I was waiting for and dreading July 20th, James and Jake’s due date. My arms, my heart, empty.
The last time I was in a delivery room was this photo was taken, while pushing with James and Jake:
I’m pretty sure that this experience with Erin is going to conjure up some emotions that I have become pretty good at suppressing, but I’m okay with that. I think I’ll be okay.
I just know my boys will be with me, ready to introduce Erin’s baby to her, the baby I KNOW they already know.
and that just adds to my excitement.
You’re a pretty amazing friend. (and mama, and blogger, and photographer, and I’ll just stop now)
This is a really beautiful entry. What an amazing gift to give your friend by being there to help her during delivery.
I love that you have such an open heart. Erin and her baby will be very blessed to have you there at that big moment!
You are such a sweet and amazing lady. I hope Erin knows how lucky she is to have you as her friend!
Oh, you are a great friend and those two are totally adorable.
She’s a lucky lady to have you in the room with your camera.
If I have another baby, I am going to need for you to be there, K? Bring your camera. I’ll pay for the ticket.
Another breathtaking entry. You had me laughing and then came the tears … everything I like in a post!
Wow. Your strength is amazing. I will be praying for you while you stand with your friend. What a blessing to have a friend like you.
Beth, I am so excited for you to be a part of this. You are strong and brave (and so is Erin!) and it’s going to be amazing.
Steph
I have never been “on the other side” of a birth. How exciting! You are so strong – you really are!
Feel it! I’m so excited for your friend. My sister called me Last Friday ( I can tlel here I can’t blog or fb it) and she says “ah you know those home pregnancy tests?” yeah? “can you like see the line before you pee on them?”
uh no you are pregnant and a line is a line is a line, she’s woke me up 4 days in a row with “nope nto going to beleive it until it’s a line instead of dashes” Yesterday’s call was a real line. ehhehe hahah ehhe so I’m going to be an aunt again.
I like that story though about the migrain meds, I’m passing that one on!
You are such a wonderful friend!
How exciting Beth! What an honor to be a part of this miracle of life. I can’t wait to hear and see pictures. You are so strong and Erin is so blessed to have you by her side.
Do you know how much you just made me cry? So much. I was thinking about this last night and how the entire time we’ve known each other, I’ve been pregnant. Even when you took our photos! So I feel like this baby is going to be born knowing you already because he/she already knows James and Jake, and I bet they’ve told it to love on you SO MUCH.
And like I said, if at any time it’s too much, I completely understand if you need to go get a breath of fresh air… or another milkshake. Love you.
How exciting!!!
Beautiful.
So sweet! What a beautiful friendship!
I love this. You are such an amazing writer. You capture so many different emotions at once. You and Erin are so lucky to have each other! That kind of friendship is often hard to find.
Would have totally loved to have you (and your sister!) there for my 26 hours of labor. Hello, hilarious!
What an honor. I am a birth junkie and personally don’t care if I’ve been invited in the room for pictures, video, labor support, massage, or to clean up the slop. I love to watch a miracle any day of the week and twice on Sunday.
Enjoy your miracle, I’m sure your pictures will be awesome.
Awwww. I would love to have a friend like that locally! We’ve lived here a year and a half and I haven’t found her yet.
Congratulations on your strength! What an amazing post. I, too, laughed and cried. I can’t WAIT to see photos and read about it!
Well shit. You’ve done gone and made me cry all over my chocolate chip cookies this morning.
You are amazing. Really, truly, undeniably a.ma.zing.
ZING!
Awwww.. what a cute post! Erin is so lucky to have you. I bet it will be a VERY emotional day. Stay strong.. and bring a box of waffle cones and teddy grahams!
I can’t wait to hear how everything went.. I’m such a labor junkie.. I love everything about labor..
amazing how you can make one laugh and cry at the same time.
thank you for sharing. cannot wait to hear what Erin is having! we chose not to find out until the delivery and it does add a bit more excitement to it all.
I have goosebumps. You are such an amazing friend, being there for her. Wonderful.
so beautiful.
okay, this is awesome.
i love what a wonderful friend…wonderful person you are. embracing any fear & sadness and realizing that the other emotions will be worth this journey. love that.
so happy for all of you….what a wonderful, fun, joyful, sentimental L & D room that would be. =)
Your strength as a mom, a woman, a friend comes from somewhere that few people have. We call it a heart, a soul or a spirit… but your strength is wider and deeper and bigger than even these because your relationships are woven with kindness and love and humor and selflessness. Even in the midst of the most difficult time, you immerse yourself in the joy, and even sometimes the pain, of others. I will never, ever forget the moment I had no-one to turn to but you… and you were there. Strong. Your angel babies know all the pain, all the strength and all the joys of you. Your presence at Erin’s delivery is more powerful than anything I can imagine. And your boys will be there. They want you there. Life pushes us in certain directions… and you make each day count for hundreds of us out here, as well as an extraordinarily special one each once-in-awhile. You are extraordinary.
You are gorgeous, through and through. I think it will be an amazing experience for both of you. I just had a heart sister at the birth of my baby and it was wonderful, so comforting, so bonding. Love to you both, I can’t wait to see a few of the pictures!
This is a beautiful post.
Good luck to both of you…an exciting day is ahead!
What an amazing experience this is going to be for you, for so very many reasons. I can’t wait to hear about it from both of you AND find out what gender the baby is!
Meh. I cried. I’m supposed to be packing. But I’m glad that I read this instead. Even if I did cry.
Sending my best as you prepare to be the only you that you know how to be: the one with the big heart.
You’re blessed to have so many awesome friends around you. I hope you know that. I’m sure you do.
Nell
I love your last line about how your babies already know this baby. And I also love Erin’s comment about how James & Jake have told him/her to love on you so much. How wonderful is that!
I was in with my sister when she had her baby six weeks ago & I honestly can’t wait to witness that miracle again. Of course that probably will be if/when I have a baby so that’ll be awhile! But if I follow my mom’s suggestion about having a baby now before I get married (yes you read that right. Apparently 5 grandkids isn’t enough for her), then you & your sister will have to be in the delivery room with me. I’d flip out if I had to do that myself.
There are WAY TOO MANY Sarahs up in here. What am I, like the 17th Sarah commenter? Hrmph.
I love you, and Erin, and your babies. The end.
What an awesome event to be apart of!
Goosebumps isn’t the word for this post. Wonderful, magical, all seemingly too small for what this post is.
I feel just as smitten with Erin myself. Something about her just mesmerizes you, doesn’t it?
You are going to do fine in the delivery room, I am sure of it. What an amazing thing to be a part of. I can’t wait to hear the good news!