Run, girl.

By Beth
Jul 08, 2009

There is so much I want to do on a daily basis.  I always have big dreams of waking up and working out, showering, cleaning up the house and then getting to work.  I’d love to pack up the kids and go grocery shopping or take them to the park, come home and work even more, possibly catch up on laundry.  Make dinner, clean it up, read stories to my kids, weed the garden.  For me, that would be a really great day.

Instead, I wake up, brush my teeth, put my contacts in, make coffee and then I write or design, sometimes I put a load of laundry in, but my ten in the morning, all I want to do is sleep.  Like crawl into bed, head on my pillow SLEEP.  It’s such a physical fatigue that I can’t fight it.  I am so tired that some days, just moving my hand over to my computer mouse is too much. I am not exaggerating at all.

I am so tired.

On days where I’m too busy for a nap, I’ll take one in the car.  I have never been one to nap, so this life of mine where I require a nap every single day?  It’s not me, it’s so foreign.

Honestly, I’ve been very worried about myself lately, trying to figure out what is causing this intense fatigue.  I’ve wondered if I could be pregnant even though I’ve had a period, I’ve wondered if maybe it’s depression causing my body to lose its spark.

What’s even more frustrating is that I’m mentally still so motivated to get things done, to start new projects, to clean my house, to create a fun and memorable summer for the kids but I just can’t move.  Literally.

I briefly mentioned my fatigue to my cardiologist last week and they just sort of swept me to the side, which is okay, I mean, he’s the cardiologist, what could he do?  I had my thyroid tested two months ago and everything showed up okay.

So, I mentioned it my OB specialist on Monday after she mentioned making sure my thyroid levels were in order and she said that it was a good thing we were checking on my thyroid, maybe that’s what the problem was.

I wasn’t counting on it but at 12:21 today, her office called and yes, my thyroid levels were down.

I can honestly say that I nearly cried after getting off of the phone.  I may have even told the nurse that I was going to drive to Chicago to personally HUG THEM BOTH BECAUSE OHMYGOD THANK YOU!  The only other time I was so excited to get an abnormal test result was when I was diagnosed with Hashimotos.

Then it all started to make sense – DUH!  I’m dizzy, I fill my sink with my fallen hair, I’m forgetful…Yes, my thyroid IS low.  Why didn’t I think that my levels would not have dropped within the past two months?   Either way, I’ll pick up my prescription and love that what I’m feeling may actually be helped by a little purple pill.

So, once again, this week, I am hopeful.  I am hopeful that I’ll find myself soon, my physical self that is hiding behind this ambitious mind because when these two meet?  You best watch out.

run, girl.


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Comments

  1. 1

    Excellent! What a relief for you. Welcome back to yourself.

    I recently went through all the blood work and tests to find out why I could not wake up (ever) and found nothing. So, naturally I just assumed I was dying. Finally, figured out that I have a wheat allergy. Medically speaking, toast has been kicking my ass. Now it’s just a “choice” to stay in my pajamas all day.

    Congrats.

  2. 2
    r.pinnegar says:

    I have been there! I’ve felt that complete absence of energy and strength. Thank goodness for the little purple pill! I’m happy for you! ♥ rp

  3. 3
    Zak says:

    Beth, holy crap. I am so glad that you have some answers. Because it is fixable. I take thyroid medicine twice a day and for almost two years, I went through HELL. I was told it was all “mental”, even though my thyroid level was a 12. I finally found a medicine that was right for me (Armour…Levothyroxine and Synthroid didn’t work because I can’t break down the T3) and a thyroid specialist whom I ADORE. I have since lost 20 pounds now that I am on the right treatment path and I feel NORMAL again.

    Fingers crossed for you.

    Hugs,
    Z

  4. 4
    Jennifer says:

    It is awesome to have a solution to this problem! I am so thankful that the Dr.’s took the time to properly diagnose you. Started my prayers for you daily and haven’t failed yet. :)

  5. 5
    Debra says:

    Kudos to you for pushing for an answer + so relieved for you. I’m praying that the absence of worry + getting your thyroid back up where it belongs gives you back your summer. :)

  6. 6
    Mrs Soup says:

    How wonderful! What a blessing to have something that is so easily fixable.

  7. 7

    You got me thinking, is this what my problem is?

  8. 8
    FireMom says:

    My Mom became a different person once she figured out it was her thyroid. (In a good way, of course.) Hoping your fix is quick and without side effects.

    Best of luck!

  9. 9
    Veronica says:

    What a horrible feeling, being that fatigued. I have been feeling that way myself and it never occured to me that it might be a thyroid thing. I might have to check that out. I’m glad that you have an answer and something to be able to help you! What a relief :)

  10. 10

    I’m being treated for hypothyroidism right now. I’ve been on my medicine for about a month. I’m not sure I’m seeing much change, but I know it takes time. I hope anyhow. I do feel a bit better and my panic is getting better. . . which they thought might have been caused by my whole system just being out of whack.

    Anyhow, I hope you start to feel better.

  11. 11

    My husband feels like that, almost all the time. It’s horrible. I think I am going to force him to get checked out. Also I just ate Teddy Grahams and thought of you.

  12. 12
    Sara says:

    Thank goodness that there was a reason!

    Get feeling better ASAP!

  13. 13
    Kellyn says:

    Sometimes finding the answer is half the battle. The mental battle that goes on within us all can drag us even further down.

    I am so glad that you have found the reason behind what you are going through. Hopefully you feel better very soon@

  14. 14
    Kyooty says:

    YAY! for getting an answer.

  15. 15
    ~love says:

    = )

    love this.

  16. 16

    What a relief for you to know that it was your thyroid and that it can be fixed.

    I am hopeful for you too, for many, many things. The summer is going to pick up for you!

    smooches and all that jazz,
    CE

  17. 17
    Amanda says:

    I take that lilttle purple pill for the same reason. As soon as I started I was back to my normal self! Hurrah for you! Welcome back to your life!

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