I’m pretty sure this is the longest I have gone without writing. At least in a long, long time. It’s like I forgot I even had a blog. We were gone all day long every single day and then we would get home late, put the kids to bed, watch Brian exercise and be so tired I could barely make it up the stairs.
One night, I even stayed up until 12:24 IN THE MORNING.
My life, oh this crazy life of ours, will hopefully be returning to normal tomorrow. So much happened this weekend beyond the funeral, (which was perfect, thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers), so much good but also so many bad, negative things that make my heart hurt. Things I can not speak of here because it’s not mine to tell. It’s just not good.
Today felt lighter and brighter, despite the rest of my family heading back to their home all over the United States. I miss my brothers and sisters and their wives and husbands and kids so much. I hate living so far away from them. This afternoon, I took a beautiful nap, I was so tired and slept so hard.
Pregnancy, death, drama, trauma, it’s all so exhausting.
So, tomorrow we return to the mounds and mounds of laundry, school lunches, grocery shopping, homework, school forms that we are endlessly filling out and regular life…I’m ready for it. I am so ready for it.