Unknown

By Beth
Oct 05, 2009

My biggest frustrations came this morning when Anna couldn’t decide on which pair of shoes to wear and when the van light came on telling me to get an oil change.  Both occurred before 8:00.

I dropped the kids off at school, came home and my phone rang.  It was my OB.

Something came back with my blood work, I don’t know what, I don’t have much information, but it’s serious and affects both me and the baby.  The condition is extremely rare.  My doctor and my specialist in Chicago have gotten me into a highly regarded OB specialist in Chicago.  My appointment is on Monday.

One week from today.

I’m scared.  Frustrated.  Uncertain.  I was just starting to relax just a little bit.  Just starting to feel like a “normal” pregnant woman.  I was doing things like projects and cleaning and my belly, it’s growing and people I don’t know ask me about it.

I feel comforted knowing that I am under the best of care, I am grateful to live where I live where I can be cared for by these three doctors, but I’m feeling so defeated.

My kids, my husband, ME, we love this baby so much and now I’m so scared, even more than I was just this morning.  I didn’t think I could become more frightened.  I was wrong.

Prayers.  I NEED prayers, positive thoughts and strength and I need this baby, safe in our arms next spring.  I don’t think I could handle any other outcome.

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Comments

  1. 201

    beth, i am praying for you…..please God, let this just be a “blip”…..just a weird reading in the bloodwork…..and i’m praying for you and your family to be given strength…..

  2. 202
    Paula Westbrook says:

    you are in my thoughts and prayers….

  3. 203
    Tiffany says:

    sending up prayers for you, your family, and your little bean today.

  4. 204

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  5. 205
    Angie says:

    My prayers are with you and your family Beth.

  6. 206
    Minnie says:

    Sending a million thoughts and prayers to you and your’s.

  7. 207
    Erl says:

    Please know that we are thinking of you and your family and you are uplifted in prayer.

  8. 208
    Stephanie says:

    The unknown is always terrifying, heart-wrenching.

    I just sent up a prayer for you, your family, your baby…for hope, happiness, health…and…peace.

  9. 209
    Trish says:

    You and your beautiful family are in my prayers!!!

  10. 210
    Lorena says:

    I’m praying for better times for you when all you think of is your little one being in your arms and all this is in the past… I’m here to offer all the warm support one heart can give.

  11. 211

    Sending positive thoughts your way!
    xoxo

  12. 212

    I have no idea how I missed this post. I just thought the last post was because of the pregnancy. Oh Beth, I am praying so hard for you right now. Lifting you up with so many others. I pray that you get the answers you need on Monday and that come this spring you will have your babe in your arms…forever.
    xoxo

  13. 213
    Jaclyn says:

    Today was my first time on your blog. Please know that I’ve already said a prayer for you after reading about your pregnancy. And, I’ll continue to pray.

  14. 214

    Sending you nothing but positive thoughts from the other side of the atlantic. I have everything crossed for you and your family.

  15. 215
    Angel says:

    Beth,
    May you find the strength you need to get thru this difficult time. My prayers are with you. I too received “that phone call” from the Dr. on my last pregnancy and was scared to death. I met with a wonderful specialist from U of Chicago and he helped me carry my baby full term, I now have a beautiful 10 week old son. It wasn’t an easy road but he is here and healthy. I am praying for you and will continue to. Positive thoughts and a positive outcome!

  16. 216

    Sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way!!!
    XOXO

  17. 217
    Carrie says:

    Oh, Beth, I’m so sorry – I just saw this. I saw your tweet that your baby’s heartbeat is still nice and high though – I will be praying that you can get some answers soon!

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