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Friday Morning Coffee

Friday, March 26th, 2010

By Beth

So, my rule is this, as long as it’s still Friday before noon, I can still call these posts Friday Morning Coffee. It’s 11:55 and I’m drinking water.

I drink a lot of water.

Anyway, today is the last day of Spring Break for the kids. Brian is at work and is scheduled for a long day. But that is only because he isn’t supposed to return to work until May 3rd. He’ll be taking two weeks vacation and working from home for two weeks and this is good, very good.

(I can’t wait to see him see the baby for the first time. I feel so lucky to be able to witness such an amazing moment.)

My body is very, very ready for this baby. I have to imagine that if I weren’t having a c-section on Monday that labor would be soon after. Yesterday they did a bio-physical profile on the baby, where they look at the fluid levels, how he’s breathing, how he’s moving, all sorts of good stuff. They couldn’t even see his face because he is down so low.

Which means … OW.

Right now, as I sit in a comfortable chair, I can honestly say I can’t remember being much more uncomfortable than this in my life. But it’s okay because I have no choice. IT’S JUST OKAY.

In a few minutes I’m going to make lunch for the kids and then we are going waddle to our favorite cupcake shop. Well, they’ll run, I’ll waddle, maybe crawl, maybe just sit at the front door begging someone to bring cupcakes to us. Either way, THEY WILL HAVE CUPCAKES.

I had plans to pick up a few spring-y things for the house, but right now the last thing on my mind is spring-ifying my house. I feel my mood suddenly shifting, it probably has to do with the pressure on my bladder and pubic bone (and back and legs), either way, I leave you with this.

birdie shirts

I can’t wait to see the three of them wearing these together. I bought these from this Etsy shop – I LOVE them.

Categories: Friday Morning Coffee, Pregnancy

Random Pieces

Thursday, March 25th, 2010

By Beth

First, have you signed up to receive one of my birth announcements? Can I tell you how much I love that YOU can receive one? {yes you.} Tiny Prints did this for my friend, Megan, over at Velveteen Mind, when I received mine I was so thrilled. It just made me happy.

So, please feel free to sign up, don’t be shy. I love the idea of giving you back some of the love you all have given me during this pregnancy and beyond.

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Also, I posted here.

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And the winner of the Geezees Canvas Art giveaway is Jess! Congrats!

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This week has been a very, very difficult week for me emotionally. I can think of maybe 10 reasons why this may be the case but I think the biggest problem I am having is my lack of sleep. I just can’t sleep. It used to be a comfort issue now it’s a mind-racing issue AND a comfort issue. ”what do I need to do before he arrives, will he be healthy, will he go to the NICU? how will the kids adjust? how will we adjust? is this really real? is he with James and Jake right now?”

I think of that last thought often. I laid in bed last night, eyes closed, surrounded by pillows, listening to Brian breathe quietly. I wondered if James and Jake have been telling this baby things about their family like “Noah is going to teach you to play video games, he’s really good, so listen to him. (and you are going to love his belly laugh!) Anna plans to read stories to you every single day. (and wait until you see her beautiful eyes!) Mom is a sucker for baby noises, so coo a lot, she can’t get enough. And Daddy? He’s a big guy with a huge heart, he loves to snuggle with his babies, that makes him happy.”

It’s a lot to take in, a lot to think about. Our lives are changing forever, in a really good way but change is hard no matter who you are and as THE MOM I’m worrying a lot.

But I can handle this. I can handle the lack of sleep, I had it before and it was in a much more difficult situation.

I can handle the crying, the emotional toll. I’ve done it before but for a different reason, one that broke my heart.

And I can handle the worry of how this is going to affect my family … I’ve worried this before and we came out good. Better.

I’ve got this.

Sleepily. Painfully. Happily.

I’ve got this.

Categories: Family, JJF, Pregnancy

You Capture – A Moment

Wednesday, March 24th, 2010

By Beth

Hi friends.

I hope you had a great week capturing moments – I liked this week’s assignment, I just wish I had picked up my camera more often!

While I’m on the topic of picking up your cameras, please remember that the absolute goal of You Capture is to encourage you to take pictures. If a topic inspires you to post an old photo of yours, that is great but that doesn’t quite meet the requirement to link up! So, pick up your cameras, friends!

I’ve been lucky enough to spend some time with my friends this past week, which I love. One late afternoon, we all met at a local park. The sun was shining but it was a little chilly. Not too chilly for Mommy-Baby playtime. This is Erin with her Tommy.

Erin and Tommy

Here’s a photo of Lovelyn’s girls and my sweet girl (the one peeking over the chair) all laughing at one of the toddlers being silly. They all laughed so hard that us Moms just had to laugh.

I LOVED that moment.

happy moment

Now, it’s your turn to share. Pleeeeeeeeaaasssseee read the guidelines oh and don’t forget, for the next two weeks You Capture is going to be hosted by Keli, so feel free to head over there and get all cozy and comfortable. She’s a great hostess.

And ONE MORE THING: the next time you participate in You Capture … I’ll have my baby in my arms. *sigh*

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FEET.

Happy Capturing, friends.

Categories: you capture.

Maybe April

Tuesday, March 23rd, 2010

By Beth

One week after we lost James and Jake, Brian and I were sitting in my OB’s office for a post-delivery visit. We sat in the waiting room and were instantly called back to wait in an exam room so we didn’t have to be surrounded by gigantic pregnant bellies and little, tiny newborns being nursed by their Moms.

(reason 1,432 why I love my doctor. She thinks of things like that.)

It was a hard visit, I mean, HARD. I remember at that point feeling so emotionally drained and physically tired that I could not figure out how I could have a real conversation with this doctor. This doctor who delivered James and Jake so carefully.

Anyway, Brian and I knew we wanted to get pregnant again and honestly, we wanted to do it immediately, but we wanted to be smart. We wanted to be emotionally ready. We wanted to give time to us and Anna and Noah for grieving. And we wanted to give this time to James and Jake.

We picked up one of those wheels, the kind that tell you when you’re ovulating and menstruating and then when you’re baby will be due. It’s actually quite freakish the amount of information that exists on one of those things.

We decided, that if we were ready, that we would try to get pregnant, that year in July. ”An April baby would be perfect.”

Come that July … we just were not ready. And after another pregnancy loss in February 2009, we decided to get advice medically on what we should do. And that led us to July of 2009. We had an appointment with our specialist in Chicago, we were scheduled for an appointment with her after she had thoroughly reviewed our health history, pregnancy history, families, blood draws, tissues samples … anything and everything that could shed some light on our reproductive past, present and future.

We entered the appointment, so nervously, not knowing what to expect.

She sat us down and said “you should try again…and make it quick, you ovulate next week.”

And so we did. And even though it was a different year, we were right, an April baby is going to be perfect. (or March 29th. Whatever.)

38 weeks

(photo by Love.)

Categories: JJF, Pregnancy

Trying

Monday, March 22nd, 2010

By Beth

I’m trying to ignore the mess in my house.

Last week, if you recall, I spent the weekend cleaning, cleaning to the point of crying because my body hurt so bad but I just couldn’t stop. Well, this weekend was the opposite because my body is done. I am exhausted and in pain and my uterus is always tight and I’m just done, it’s just time for me to sit. or lay down.

ALL DAY LONG.

And now, my house? It is suffering.

So, when I get up (to pee or for food) and I see the state of my end table in my living room? I become so frustrated.

gah

(showing you this photo PAINS me, but if I can show you a picture of me in my underwear, well, I can show you anything.)

(and make no mistake…this is not the only mess. Oh, it so is not.)

So, where there is only one week left of this awesome pregnancy, one week left until we meet, hold, love, kiss, smell, snuggle and feed this tiny little blessing, well, it will be a week of me trying not to lose my mind with all of the things that “need” to be done, all of the things that I’m just too tired to tackle. (oh and my kids are on spring break which makes the whole trying to clean the house and keep it clean? IMPOSSIBLE.)

I’m trying to focus on other things.

Like, how I only have a week to eat as many buffalo chicken sandwiches, as possible.

How I only have a week to have mornings where I can eat breakfast … three times.

How I could, potentially, ask Brian to bring me my favorite Coldstone concoction, but never, ever do.

or how I seriously think I could live off of cookies dunked in milk and some good ol’ sausage for the next week.

Man. I love food.

But the food can only distracts me for so long.

The mess wins.

damnit.

Categories: Pregnancy, stupid crap

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