I have this baby in my belly. He makes me nervous and anxious and fearful. Except he isn’t the one making me feel that way, it’s life and our past and I’m trying to move past those feelings except it’s hard because IT’S JUST HARD.
This baby, we found out yesterday, weighs 6 pounds 15 ounces already. I think it’s funny that Brian and I both kind of feel like he’s a tiny little peanut where everyone else, (doctor, ultrasound tech) says BIG BABY. He is set to arrive in 20 days.
20 days isn’t much considering it’s only twenty days and during that time the kids are off for spring break and that’s only like six American Idol episodes and only 19 more sleepless nights with ridiculous amounts of drool with tissue sticking to my face.
My doctor asked if the baby knows his name. ”Does Supervisor know his name?” We were caught off guard. Does he? I looked at Brian and we both sort of shrugged and said “Maybe? We don’t know.” And she said “teach him his name, call him by his name…everything is going to be alright.”
And that made me feel better, for a moment, because how does she really know?
{I’m working on trust. I’m trusting her. God. and James and Jake to continue to provide us with the faith they have so far.}
Last night, Brian, Anna, Noah and I sat on the couch watching Yo Gabba Gabba. (it was a good one with Weird Al Yankovic and Sarah Silverman…yes, I know some of you think it’s a strange show. I like strange…I like that my kids like strange, too.)
Anyway, we sat and Anna sat next to me and soon her arm sat on my belly in such a way, like she was just making sure that this baby was moving the way he was supposed to. and he was and she thinks that means that he likes her and can’t wait to meet her.
I’m sure she’s right.
We like him and can’t wait to meet him. In just 20 days.
{and right now, as I’m about to hit publish, this baby has the hiccups – those make me so happy.}
Less than 3 weeks! Wahoo! Enjoy these last days.
Supervisor… that is too cute! He will be the supervisor, the observer, he will sit back in awe of the amazing family he has been gifted with. Love you <3
Hiccups are the best. I definitely miss those! I am glad you are enjoying them.
Trust in God. He will be there for you. I can’t wait to meet him, too.
38 weeks! EEEKS! It makes me a giddy and sorts for you!
Big Baby is right, but that is outstanding to hear. I keep thinking of you at odd times, at this cute little store in the mall, when I pick up a onsie just to see how tiny it is.
You are in my prayers Beth, you and that miracle who is so close to being here.
oh momma!! hugs to you! everything is going to be alright and JUST right!
I am so excited for your family! I have faith that everything is going to turn about perfect.
Your little peanut is so loved. By you and Brian and your ADORABLE children.
And by us. He is so loved by us.
I can’t wait to meet him.
20 days is nothing. He’s almost here. And you are still being beautiful. He will be so loved!
I just discovered your blog about two months ago and we don’t know each other but I just thought I should let you know you have the cutest pregnant belly. And hiccups are the best!
I do believe in my heart that he is excited to meet all of you too! Prayers for a smooth 20 days!
Maxwell Hammer is probably the most loved baby in the history of all babies. And when he’s happy and healthy on our side of the belly, he’s going to be the most spanked baby in the history of all babies because Aunt Erin owes him approximately 7000 spankings.
I have been following your blog for a while, (I did the you captures in the summer)and I love reading about your pregnancy. I just had my first baby two weeks ago, so I was just where you are now
You’re little peanut will be here soon!!!
You have a beautiful baby belly. I am excited for you and your family to welcome this little guy into your daily lives – full of love and heart.
such a beautiful shot. I shyed away from the camera the whole entire time I was pregnant with both girls and it makes me so sad and cherish the few photos I have with a belly even that much more.
Praying for you and sending so much love your way.
I wish I were closer so I could do a maternity shoot for you.
This is just so exciting! Wow..only 20 days!
Soon, he’ll be hiccuping in your arms, and that will be even more amazing. Hang in there!
I miss the hiccups and the swirls. Enjoy these last few days, honey. So soon! Yay!
Exciting! Kyron had Hiccups all the time and I thought it was tooo funny!
Shane
http://www.calgarydaddy.com
20 days will be here before you know it!
Enjoy these last few days as a family of four!!
What a sweet thing for your nurse to say! I am so happy for you – you’re getting SOOOO close!!!
Praying that all goes well- your belly is so cute!! 
I love what your doctor said to you. It’s wonderful that she’s in touch with how you are feeling and that your anxiety and fears are real to her. And that she meets you there and gives you assurance in a personal way that resonates enough with you that you’ll write about it. Not just, “The baby is fine,” she wants you to teach him his name. That’s big.
I loved the hiccups too.
Twenty days. TWENTY.
Man, I can’t wait to exhale, can you? Been awhile. xoxoxox
I’m so happy for you Beth! Praying for you to have more strength and trust.
These 20 days are going to fly by, and then he’ll be here! I think you daughter’s right, he is excited to come out and meet you all!
Another beautiful baby belly!! So excited for all of you. Supervisor will be here before you know it!
a) love the belly, as always
b) I get that, the whole not wanting him to be stuck with a legacy that really isn’t his. Oh, how I get that.
I remember baby hiccups ~ so annoying and yet funny and sweet! One of mine used to get them in the middle of the night quite often! Your belly shots are simply lovely
And I am so pleased your friends laid on such a fantastic ‘get togther’ in the coffee shop ~ looks like you had a great time together 
God bless and many many prayers for the next 20 days
I enjoy following your journey through your blog! Your belly is beautiful and I can’t wait to see a picture of the sweet new baby boy! God is near and continue to put your faith & hope in Him.
Enjoy these last 20 or so days with your family. Things are about to get crazy! (in a good way).
I love baby inside hiccups. Twenty days. So exciting. XO.
So close!! I’m so excited for you!
Your writing is giving me baby fever so bad.
20 days will fly by! Your belly is sooo beautiful!
Call him by name, that is beautiful.
Steph
Only 20 more days – woo hoo! Love your belly shots, but I can’t wait to see all the baby photos your going to have too.
I miss the hiccups!! That was my FAVORITE thing about being pregnant! Those sweet little reminders that the baby was doing great!
Good Luck and keep the faith!
Oh I love baby hiccups!
And I am sure Anna is right too.
Your post brings back a lot of memories for me. The fear, the worry, the anticipation – especially after your previous loss. I can relate. Is there comfort in knowing you aren’t alone in your thoughts? I hope so, because you have a whole lot of people who care and who are thinking of you and sending positive, happy vibes your way.
Let your faith keep you strong. Have faith in the doctor, have faith that Jake and James are watching over you and protecting your little supervisor. Most importantly have faith in your body. Your body has done so well these past 36 weeks and will continue to nourish and protect your little guy until he enters this world. Then it will be his turn to drool when he sleeps!
Godspeed my friend!
First of all, LOVE Yo Gabba Gabba. It’s the best new kids program out there. Original and funny….and yes, weird, but that’s what makes it AWESOME.
I really hope you are able to find some peace in these last few weeks of your pregnancy, hard as it is.
Keeping you and your family in my prayers!
oh how i miss being pregnant. it’s already been almost 19 weeks since i had my baby and i miss it like crazy. i always tried to remind myself on my uncomfortable days that i would truely miss being pregnant. seeing your beautiful tummy makes me remember what an amazingly special gift having a baby is.
I SOOOO understand your feelings. My son’s wife is pregnant and is 33wks5days today. In 2008, she was 33wks4days pregnant with my grandson when she suffered placental abruption. An emergency c-section was performed, but Collin suffered cardiac arrest 20 mins after his birth and they were unable to save him.
Getting past yesterday was hard. I didn’t want to tell my story to scare you, but to THANK you for sharing. I just love what your doctor said to you. It is really the only way to live/survive the next weeks. I thank you. And I just know now that Cooper (that will be his name) will thank you to.
Thirty! Six! WEEKS! HOORAY!!!!!!!
Also, our family totally love Yo Gabba Gabba. The songs are an integral part of our parenting practices:
Don’t! Don’t! Don’t Bite Your Friends!
Try it! You’ll like it! Just try it! You’ll like it!
Keep trying! Keep trying! Don’t give up, never give up.
Seriously. We sing YGG tunes a LOT around here. Better than yelling/nagging/whining.
Ah! So excited for you – finally delurking to let you know I am out here!
Congrats again!
Erin Delanty
Wow, he is going to be a big baby..My boys were 6 12 and 6 11…Cannot wait…
Big babies are healthy babies : ) And I agree, I love hiccups.
I love to read your posts. I too had a long wait for a baby. I would worry one second and buy baby stuff in the next one. I wish I could go back to my pregnancy days and do it over without the worry and know how sweet, perfect and wonderful my baby would be. (They are now 8 and 3.5)
Hiccups are a great sign!! My little one (now 2!!) used to get them all the time at the end of my pregnancy and I was told that they are actually “practicing breathing” when they get them!! I always loved how it felt too! Such a reassuring little bump, bump, bump…
Your belly is perfect! 20 days! Wow!
So cool… So very cool. You look awesome and I love how your family loves this sweet boy who will be joining you oh-so excitingly soon. Yum!!
Hi Beth! I found your website through http://melanieberge.blogspot.com/–she linked to one of your “You Capture” posts. I’ve so enjoyed getting to know you and your family through your posts, rejoicing in your pregnancy, and the darling surprise baby shower your friends threw!! I was involved in a surprise bridal shower over the weekend, thrown for a blogging friend by a bunch of blogging friends! It was awesome. Blessings!
Less than 3 weeks. How exciting. I can’t wait to meet this little man. You make me so very happy. You look absolutely beautiful. It was wonderful to see youon Saturday.
I love in utero hiccups. Is there anything more precious? I can’t wait to “meet” your little boy!
20 days! I hope that you enjoy every minute.