How are you, pretty blog? I miss you. I miss coming here daily and sharing my thoughts with you. I miss taking photos and editing them and feeling like I must share these shots with the world.
My blog is getting dusty. My camera is getting dusty, I sort of feel like my soul is getting dusty. Do you ever feel that way? That your life is so busy with the day to day activities of changing 400 diapers a day, dishes, laundry, boo-boo kisses, homework, snacks, meals…YOU CATCH MY DRIFT, that you miss the things that inspire you and drive you to just be a better person?
At the end of the day, I lay down and think “huh, I really never experienced any ‘me’ time,” which I believe is important, not just for me, but for everyone. (including my husband, who never gets me time, either.)
This phase of newborn-ness, it’s a tricky one. You’re so busy taking care of everything else that you, as a Mama, start to slip through your own fingers, even though you are right there.
Fortunately, I’ve been through this before and I know it won’t last forever, I’m doing my best to let go of the emails, the pedicures and yes, the showers and managing to take a deep breath and stare at these little tiny fingers, gorgeous expressions and sweet smells.
But it’s hard. I’m starting to miss me.
and that doesn’t mean I don’t love and appreciate this guy, I’m just wishing for the best of both worlds.
(diaper changing pad he’s laying on is the best – it’s from Sister Sue Designs)