I’ve got my raisin bran and my coffee. My coffee is much needed today, I am so sleepy. Elijah has been sleeping pretty well (PLEASEDON’TJINXIT.) Today he slept until five after I laid him down at ten last night. The day before I laid him down at ten and he slept until six!
Today, I nursed him and laid him back down at six and then I laid down and fell asleep HARD CORE. He woke up at seven crying his tiny little head off. I still can’t figure out why. I’m thinking maybe a belly ache? I nursed him and that relaxed him and then he had two explosions in his diaper.
We have been putting him in this new chair (new for him) and he loves it. That’s how I’m able to write right now. He stares at it likes it’s an alien and then he kicks his legs like crazy. It’s unbelievably adorable. I already feel like he’s growing up too quickly.
Today is the first day of summer vacation. I feel like I should feel like a bad Mom because right now Noah is playing Wii and Anna is on the computer and it’s only 8:38 in the morning. But I don’t actually feel like a bad Mom because I know once they make their beds and brush their teeth, they’ll go outside and play all day long.
Anna has a birthday party today at the neighbor’s house. They have a pool and water scares me. I’ve made plans with Stephanie, we are taking our kids on a picnic and a walk while Anna’s at the party, I’m so nervous leaving her there. (she can’t swim)
Brian tells me I need to loosen my strings a little, that I bring so much stress on myself just with worry. I can’t help it, I get it from my Mom.
So far today, Anna has asked me at least 25 questions and she’s been awake for 70 minutes. That’s a lot of questions to ask someone who doesn’t have a lot of patience today. We bought her a new bathing suit and face mask last night. She wants to put them on right now for a party that’s in three hours. I’m tempted to let her just for the sake of peace.
Don’t you hate it when you don’t have patience? It’s like you know you don’t have patience, you know you don’t like not having patience but you just don’t know how to get the patience.
Anna keeps talking to me about the party, like right now, as I type. She’s trying on her bathing suit right now. I just gave her permission to keep it on for awhile, for the sake of peace. Eli is getting fussy and now I’m wondering how I’m going to get through the day without any patience.
I mean, I know I’ll get through it, but I’d like to do it somewhat gracefully, you know? So far? That’s not happening.
ANYWAY, this weekend is the first weekend in a really long time without any plans. I hope it stays that way. We plan to start the weekend out by cleaning the house tomorrow morning. I have this deep desire to make my house lighter, to fill up bags for Goodwill and give stuff away via Freecycle and also to throw things away. We have too much stuff.
I feel like I’ve tortured you with my ramblings.
By the way, this piece of crap post took me over two three hours to write.
I need some tylenol.
I hope your weekend is better than this post.
I feel the same way about my apartment. The 3 of us live in 800 sq ft of space with another tiny human due to arrive mid September. THERE’S JUST TOO MUCH STUFF. Throw it away, burn it, I don’t care. I want it gone. My husband has so many pieces of clothing that he doesn’t wear yet seem to ALWAYS be in the laundry pile. I want to bag them up and pass them out to the homeless in DC. Though, I’m not sure what they would do with 800 fleece shirts
during our horribly humid summer.
I had one of those patience-less days yesterday. It happens. I hope your weekend is full of chocolate cake.
I find myself being the one who dampers things with worry. It stresses everyone else out but there is not much I find that relaxes myself. Sometime I remember the serenity prayer but lots of times I just try deep breathes. I hope that your day gets better so you find that hidden patience that you know you have!
We like your crappy posts anyway
I can’t believe you said you got the worry gene from me but I’m not mad because, first of all, it’s true; and secondly, you pointed to my blog and that never hurts.
Now as far as Anna’s party, just insist that she wear a life jacket the whole time. If you don’t have one, we probably do from the times Amber went swimming with her dad’s family and we bought her one of her own. TWICE.
You’re going to have a wonderful summer vacation and I wish I had your de-clutter gene. When you finish your house, do you want to make plans to come and do mine? Oh wait. You don’t want to make plans at all, do you.
I don’t blame you! Enjoy some freedom! You’ve earned it.
Patience is something I could use a lot more of too. Can I tell you how much I look forward to your Friday Morning Coffee? Because I really do.
Your posts today is something as mothers or fathers we all feel. I say let her wear the swim suit, sometimes my kids just eat Nutrigrain bars all day because its all they seem to want to eat. Your an awesome mom. Enjoy your weekend!
Loves reading this. Just a little glimpse into the morning of a very busy (and blessed!) Mama. I totally understand. Summer will fall into place…everything will work out. I hope that you have a great weekend too!
Mindy
I totally agree with you about wanting to de-clutter. We have so much stuff and it makes me crazy. But I have a hard time knowing where to start! I need Peter Walsh of Cleen Sweep to come and help me! Love your blog and enjoy all of your posts.
oh my goodness…yes i hate when I don’t have patience and I KNOW that I don’t have it and I can hear myself being snappy and crabby but I can’t stop it…
i had minimal plans this weekend until that darn storm decided to wreck my backyard. Now I will have minimal plans AND a lot of clean up to do.
boo.
Anna will be fine, your baby’s schedule will become more and more predictable, your house will be a source of comfort to your family whether it’s cluttered or not. You are a really good momma, which you know in your heart of hearts. You will prevail, and you will find the grace you need. Trust yourself and be kind to yourself. (And please forgive me for the Pop Tarts rant!)
I totally hate the days I have no patience. I actually just read a blog post in my reader about patience with your kids and how to do it (or fake it) and why it’s important. It REALLY hit home with me.
I also have a deep desire to get rid of STUFF that is in our house. Clean out closets, organize, donate, dump. I am finally starting to have some time to get to it (yay summer!) and I am SO HAPPY to do it. Hope your cleaning goes well!
i’m sorry that you were feeling like that…it is hard. your tweet made me smile and i’d totally share with you. i hope you found some and have enjoyed your day. i hear you on letting anna go to a swim party…so hard. i’m sure she’ll have a great time and i hope you do w/ steph, too! YAY to decluttering and LOL at…
Ramble away, it’s your space. I think though I could possibly be in the same place when it comes to patience. I’m not being very calm cool or collected today. I know why, but it doesn’t stop me from wanting to scream “stop talking!”
I guess kids are kids and they have a lot of questions, but why must we answer them all? maybe I should let google answer them? Or Twitter?
That sleep sounds divine. My 11 week old was up every hour from 2:30a-6:30a when my saintly husband finally took him downstairs until 9 so I could get some rest. I too am low on patience.
I am cracking up because you know I’d let Anna wear her swimsuit to the store LOL (you have to see what I just tweeted you before I read this post!) But here’s a secret: I think sometimes I fake patience for LAZINESS.
It was so good to hang out with you today.
Steph
Oh PS you are an awesome Mom.
LOL just read your Mom’s comment.
Steph
I hope you have a great weekend with no plans!
My plans include bra shopping and seeing my extremely adorable nephew for a few hours.
I hope you enjoy your free weekend
I always enjoy a good cleaning and getting rid of junk.
The whole thing I got out of this post?? Didn’t know your mom had a blog, and then I spent a bunch of time over at her blog, and forgot what you wrote about for a sec, but then came back here to tell you how much I liked your mom’s blog. When probably I should be telling her.
But also, I have many patience-less days, and I’m not even a parent yet. So I can’t even imagine.
you and i speak the same language. i read your words above and they are all words i have said. its crazy!
i hate moments, or days… that i feel like my lack of patience is the variable factor in everyone’s mood in my house. and i just simply cant get it together.
thanks for sharing your day! hope it got better…..
Relax and ENJOY! Remember it wasn’t long ago that Anna was as little as Eli and now look! You get more patience the older you get. You’ll need it for the teen years, trust me!
Relax and enjoy those young uns. Patience comes with age, but not soon enough for the teen years! ha!
Your post is better than anything I would be typing right now, which is why my blog is dusty.
And I am totally with you on being nervous about the pool party, I would have too. Hope it went well for both of you. 
beth…it’s not a p.o.c. post.
but it shattered my hope of patience coming back to me after the baby is born. i thought i had just lost it since i am overly pregnant. 
last night we were at a kid’s b-day party and i had to just walk away from my screaming two year old b/c i couldn’t deal with her. she thought she could fish w/ a hook and do it all by herself. of course, within 5 minutes of our little scene, SHE catches a fish on her own w/ her patient daddy proudly sitting next to her. go figure. hope your weekend is better too!
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Hey, it’s not a crappy post! We love it anyway, to see we’re not alone – all of us naturally want to clean out at summertime, I think. All the blogs seems to be leaning the same way: declutter, make it more streamlined, and get outside. I think it’s good for us! It is a counterpoint to our winter-time hibernation of stuff…
Hope your weekend was great! My boys are out of school, we’re baking cake today (it’s chocolate!) and watching too much TV since it’s been rainy. What a great day!
Thanks for writing a great blog, and for being a “real” person. It’s refreshing to read about someone going through life the best way she can: that’s all we can do, with what life gives us.
Keep up the good work!