I’m home, sitting at my desk, Eli is sleeping, the kids in school, Brian at work.
Yesterday, I was in Nebraska with Eli and my Mom sitting in my sister’s living room, drinking coffee, Brian was home from work, Anna and Noah were both home from school because of sickness. In total, Noah missed six days of school and Anna missed two. Yesterday was so different; today so normal, almost ordinary.
The reality is, however, nothing really feels ordinary right now, no matter what motions I walk through today because my heart feels different.
It’s bigger, fuller, swollen, near explosion. This weekend as I attend my photography workshop, there was a lot of downtime which left me time to reflect on my life.
I thought about how I was able to attend the workshop, all of the people who surrounded me with support to make sure it happened, people to watch Eli while I was at the workshop, people to watch Anna and Noah while I was away, a husband to take care of them and clean the entire house and do laundry so I could come home and not play catch-up. A husband who not only financially supported this workshop but a husband who nudged me to go, who calmed by fears of not being good enough. My sister, who so willingly offered us her home to stay, who is so hilarious and such a bright light in this universe. My Mom who makes me believe I can do anything, who taught that to me very early on, one who helps out so much with Eli and well, with life. I have friends who offer me amazing support, those who never doubt my talents, those that encourage me to continue my quest to be among the best.
I’m simply in awe. Even by all of you. For years you have watched me with this, watch me ponder and make the decision, jump in and learn everything I could get my hands on. And right now, today, I feel launched. (I can’t find a better word to describe it.) Like, I’ve been propelled, even higher than I ever dreamed I’d be on this first day of March in 2011.
These people who surround me and love me, the family, my friends, my readers and me. It’s like we have come together and created this puzzle.
This beautiful, blessed, one-of-a-kind puzzle.
I’m just feeling so grateful for all of this.
This is just one of the many photos taken this weekend. (the props do not belong to me.)