I’m home, sitting at my desk, Eli is sleeping, the kids in school, Brian at work.
Yesterday, I was in Nebraska with Eli and my Mom sitting in my sister’s living room, drinking coffee, Brian was home from work, Anna and Noah were both home from school because of sickness. In total, Noah missed six days of school and Anna missed two. Yesterday was so different; today so normal, almost ordinary.
The reality is, however, nothing really feels ordinary right now, no matter what motions I walk through today because my heart feels different.
It’s bigger, fuller, swollen, near explosion. This weekend as I attend my photography workshop, there was a lot of downtime which left me time to reflect on my life.
I thought about how I was able to attend the workshop, all of the people who surrounded me with support to make sure it happened, people to watch Eli while I was at the workshop, people to watch Anna and Noah while I was away, a husband to take care of them and clean the entire house and do laundry so I could come home and not play catch-up. A husband who not only financially supported this workshop but a husband who nudged me to go, who calmed by fears of not being good enough. My sister, who so willingly offered us her home to stay, who is so hilarious and such a bright light in this universe. My Mom who makes me believe I can do anything, who taught that to me very early on, one who helps out so much with Eli and well, with life. I have friends who offer me amazing support, those who never doubt my talents, those that encourage me to continue my quest to be among the best.
I’m simply in awe. Even by all of you. For years you have watched me with this, watch me ponder and make the decision, jump in and learn everything I could get my hands on. And right now, today, I feel launched. (I can’t find a better word to describe it.) Like, I’ve been propelled, even higher than I ever dreamed I’d be on this first day of March in 2011.
These people who surround me and love me, the family, my friends, my readers and me. It’s like we have come together and created this puzzle.
This beautiful, blessed, one-of-a-kind puzzle.
I’m just feeling so grateful for all of this.
This is just one of the many photos taken this weekend. (the props do not belong to me.)
I am so happy all the pieces are fitting together so perfectly for you! I think it is so awesome that you have found your passion- passion not only for photography but also for life! Hold on tight and don’t let go. You are the light of the internet for me. You have have taught me so much. Keep on! You are amazing!
So happy that it is all coming together for you! Seeing your photographs on this blog, there really isn’t any doubt that you are good at what you want to do. What so many people are missing, you have – talent, an incredibly supportive husband, a family that backs you up and friends who think your awesome. It can only get better!
I think that picture just made me get pregnant.
This is lovely, I am so happy for you.
You ARE amazingly talented Beth. I’m so glad you had time to reflect and yes, the support is what keeps us going, whatever our endeavors. Congratulations and I’m so VERY excited to see where you keep going with your gorgeous photography!!
i am just so beyond happy that you are fulfilling your dreams, beth. i love watching you grow!
Beth- How lovely are those words! And how lovely that picture is! I wrote about you (well that and winning your contest a few weeks ago) today. Just thought I would let you know. <3 C
What an amazing feeling
You are such an amazing photographer and I’m so glad you were able to photograph our baby. I CANNOT wait for our session this spring or summer with my new family.
Love hearing this! You inspired me to join clickin’ moms recently and now I’m taking a workshop. I’m struggling with a “but what if I fail?” mentality, but it’s something I want to do well so badly. This post encourages me that there is not only light at the end of the tunnel but beauty in the journey. Thanks Beth and congratulations on where you are! : )
I just love that you had that kind of a weekend and experience. I’m so happy to hear you feeling inspired and thrilled…and launched. That’s just awesome. I can’t wait to see more of your photography as you continue to explore and learn and grow. It’s exciting to watch! (And learn from.)
Love this comment: “I think that picture just made me get pregnant.”
you are sooo blessed! And talented.
This is what you were meant to do.
Sounds like you have an amazing support system Beth- that is to be cherished.
Beautiful shot of that adorable little one.
I love this post. I already knew how stoked you are to be where you are right now but it was so lovely to read it – to share your feelings, your gratitude, and your happiness. You have support, yes, but ultimately it’s you working so hard to make things happen. You’ve earned every single success you have.
It’s so amazing when something you worked so hard for comes together. Especially when you have loved ones surrounding you and pushing you further.
That photo is beautiful!