I have written about her before. About the way she loves and lives, the way she sparkles, the way her talent blows me away, the way her passion blows me away. I wrote about her cancer.
I know many of you have been looking for updates and I’m sorry for being unable to update you. But I thank you for praying for her and her health, her strength.
Yesterday, Samantha passed away.
I type those words and I reread them and I can not believe it’s true. I feel like I’m lying to you. I wish I were lying to you.
But I’m not.
My heart. My heart feels missing. Lost. Broken. This is so completely unfair. It’s unfair. I can’t comprehend it and I know that it doesn’t matter whether I comprehend it or not but if I could just get an explanation from God as to why this happened, I wonder if that would make me feel better.
The world lost some color yesterday. As soon as I heard the news over the phone, everything seemed to turn black and white. I imagine it will take time to turn back to color again but the world will never, ever be the same.
I am so grateful to have met her. To have wrapped my arms around her, to have shared our dreams together, to have been able to look into her eyes and feel them nearly start me on fire. I will never, ever forget the gift of just knowing her.
But for right now, my heart just wants her back.
Please pray for her family.