I’ve started physical therapy. I think it’s funny that I actually tried to avoid it when it’s already helping me. Since my “relapse” last Wednesday, I haven’t really improved very much, which concerns me for the rest of my pregnancy but I’m doing my best to focus on the moment.
(which is a total lie.)
So, I began physical therapy and actually found out what the problem is and why I’m experiencing so much pain.
I damaged by pelvic floor.
Right now, we are working on taking the remnants and putting them back together and building a nice strong floor again. It’s going to take therapy twice a week and the rest of my pregnancy to (hopefully) repair it, so for now, I’m taking it easy, I can not lift Eli (which hurts my heart so much) and saving any activity to complete the sessions I have scheduled prior to baby girl’s delivery. (the doctor has okay’d this, as long as I have an assistant with me.)
I’m never left alone. Someone always has to be here with me to help with Eli, I’m lucky to have a Mom and a Mother-in-law who are not only retired but also able and wanting to help, I can’t get over our fortune that Brian’s job is flexible and understanding and then my friend, Lynette, who I’ve hired to help me at home with Eli and with BFP is around, too.
I am completely missing my independence but fully understand how temporary this is. I’m trying to accept the help that is given to me with grace because once this trial is over, real life begins again and I’ll be wishing for a few minutes to just sit on my couch in peace.
Last night, I had a session. I came home and Brian was outside with all three kids and it was getting dark. We came in and I ate dinner. Anna wasn’t feeling well, so she went upstairs to watch TV in my room. That left me with my three boys. I sat on the couch, eating cold pizza and we taught Eli new tricks and he entertained us and we laughed so hard and it literally hurt so much but my heart needed this laughter so badly.
I laid in bed realizing that had I NOT been resting and in pain that that moment probably would not have occurred, I would have been busy putting away toys, or cleaning up dishes or watering plants but instead, I sat and watched and interacted and loved and laughed and felt pretty grateful for all of this. Even the pain.
I hope you feel better soon! Don’t be discouraged- Fall is going to be your season. It is going to be filled with a beautiful new baby to join your incredible family. Until then take rest in grace, faith and HOPE.
I can only imagine what you’re going through and you’re very impressive from where I sit. When I was pregnant with my second I took a water aerobics which I looked forward to every week. While I don’t suggest you take a class, it might be nice to take the weight off even if it’s for 30 minutes and go for a swim or waddle in your local pool.
I wish you all the best!
I hope you feel better soon
I love how you made me smile with that last paragraph and that you are appreciating those moments even though you aren’t feeling the greatest. Glad you’re getting the therapy and here’s to hoping it makes you pain free!!
Hang in there. Seems like you see the good in things, even when the water’s a little murky. A new baby!! I’m a bit wistful that we won’t ever have a tiny new little life to walk through our doors, but it is the absolute right thing for us. Three is enough!
I hope you get some relief, and the physical therapy works!!
Hang in there Beth!! I had the exact same problem with my back a couple years ago, the source… pelvic floor muscles! The pain can be breathtaking, I can’t imagine dealing with that while pregnant too. PT helped me so much, I hope it keeps helping you feel better too!
praying for your Pelvic Floor. yes that sounds all personal but well you need it!
hugs!
wow, that sounds painful. i mean, i know you’ve been in serious pain all these weeks but hearing that something happened to your pelvic floor? OUCH.
glad you’ve got some amazing help & still having a great time with your family!!
I hope the physical therapy helps. Even though it is temporary, it’s amazing how long that temporary can feel. It’s nice that you are getting to enjoy some quality family time.
Take care of yourself and your baby….and enjoy the help that you are able to get right now!
I’ll be praying for you to heal safely.