I have thoroughly enjoyed this pregnancy. Once we had Eli we knew we’d have a fourth child, I can remember trying to come up with the perfect time to become pregnant and then in the same thought process I’d begin fearing we’d lose the baby. That our hopes of having our children close together would not come true.
We had an early ultrasound, that was the protocol for our pregnancies since losing the twins, and she surprised us with a beautiful heartbeat.
This has been my healthiest pregnancy so far. I’m on the lowest amount of blood pressure meds that I’ve ever been on, even when not pregnant, I have felt great, my swelling has been minimal, sure there are aches and pains but that’s part of pregnancy.
This pregnancy just always felt good to me. And then I damaged my pelvic floor and that did not feel good and then I could no longer pick Eli up, all I could do was sit or lie and do nothing.
So, we had to get creative with how we bonded.
I would spend many times a week attending different appointments. Mostly physical therapy, which in the end, I know, played a huge role in how good I have felt.
Beginning at 29 weeks, I started weekly NSTs. Every week, I’d head to labor and delivery and listen to babies being born, as I sat in silence, also listening to the rhythm of my sweet baby girl’s heart. Never wanting to rush through the pregnancy but obviously hardly able to wait until I saw her sweet face.
This pregnancy, despite my injury has just been really good. I can’t begin to stress how grateful I am for the health and safety of it all. Not that long ago I feared never being able to carry another child to term again. I thought I’d never hold that sweet, precious goodness that we had longed for … and here we are. Two babies in two years. (we are so blessed.)
I’m sad to see this pregnancy end. I’ve loved it and never wished it away. But rather than being sad that it’s over, I’ll just remain grateful that my last pregnancy was so very amazing.
And this week? I was given the all clear to hold Eli again. Which made my final week of pregnancy extra sweet with extra snuggles.
I’m ready for the next chapter to begin. Ready to be the mom to four amazing, beautiful children. I’m ready to be up in the middle of the night, ready for the hundreds of diapers that will need to be changed every month, I’m ready for it all.
And I’ll always, always be grateful for this amazing pregnancy that is about to close it’s door.
The next time you hear from me. The new chapter will have begun.
Thank you for always praying with me and cheering for me.