I gave up ice cream for Lent. Within days I noticed my weight dropping, it was simply amazing. At first I would have a small cup of pudding or perhaps a yogurt bar. (these are my favorite, so delicious.) I then decided I would try to go the savory route and have some baked tortilla chips with white queso. This snack is surprisingly low in points and it really is quite yummy.
This snack hit the spot, it was so good. I would have just under a half cup of queso with chips.
Now, I have something like 15 cups of queso with three bags of chips. Every night.
I’m so annoyed with myself.
I was chosen to be in Listen to Your Mother.
I wrote about James and Jake. (this is probably not surprising.) It feels so weird to speak the words I typically type or just keep to myself.
I’m nervous. Really nervous.
When I first put the piece together, I called my sister, Sarah, and read it to her. I got 3/4 of the way through and stopped because the emotion was right there at my throat. I tried to continue but there was no hope. I completely lost it. I kept apologizing to my sister, she, who was crying, too, continued to reassure me. I got through it. Hung up the phone and put my head down on my desk.
What the hell am I doing?
When I walked into the theater for rehearsal, I was scared. Scared because “oh, hi, I’m hear to bear my soul.” But also scared because I do NOT like crying in front of people.
I got through it. Not seamlessly – but perfect. At least in my eyes.
Everyday feels so good to me lately. The unbelievable warm weather, my supportive, amazing husband, my business, my deep love and appreciation for my clients, my amazing children. Each day just feels good.
I keep waiting for something terrible to happen. Our roof to collapse. A car accident. A serious illness. or just a really bad day. (I can’t help it. This is just how my mind works.)
But until then, my God, I’ll just continue to be grateful for how blessed I am.
Because I am.