I gave up ice cream for Lent. Within days I noticed my weight dropping, it was simply amazing. At first I would have a small cup of pudding or perhaps a yogurt bar. (these are my favorite, so delicious.) I then decided I would try to go the savory route and have some baked tortilla chips with white queso. This snack is surprisingly low in points and it really is quite yummy.
This snack hit the spot, it was so good. I would have just under a half cup of queso with chips.
Now, I have something like 15 cups of queso with three bags of chips. Every night.
I’m so annoyed with myself.
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I was chosen to be in Listen to Your Mother.
I wrote about James and Jake. (this is probably not surprising.) It feels so weird to speak the words I typically type or just keep to myself.
I’m nervous. Really nervous.
When I first put the piece together, I called my sister, Sarah, and read it to her. I got 3/4 of the way through and stopped because the emotion was right there at my throat. I tried to continue but there was no hope. I completely lost it. I kept apologizing to my sister, she, who was crying, too, continued to reassure me. I got through it. Hung up the phone and put my head down on my desk.
What the hell am I doing?
When I walked into the theater for rehearsal, I was scared. Scared because “oh, hi, I’m hear to bear my soul.” But also scared because I do NOT like crying in front of people.
I got through it. Not seamlessly – but perfect. At least in my eyes.
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Everyday feels so good to me lately. The unbelievable warm weather, my supportive, amazing husband, my business, my deep love and appreciation for my clients, my amazing children. Each day just feels good.
I keep waiting for something terrible to happen. Our roof to collapse. A car accident. A serious illness. or just a really bad day. (I can’t help it. This is just how my mind works.)
But until then, my God, I’ll just continue to be grateful for how blessed I am.
Because I am.
That last pictures is so adorable. I absolutely love it. Oh man.
That second picture is the cutest thing I will see all day.
And yes! So glad you are in LTYM. Your honesty is what makes it so beautiful.
glad to hear everyone is doing well in your family!
yes..you are…cannot wait to see/hear you that night!!! xo
want me to share a secret with you beautiful beth? i feel the same exact way every single moment of every single day. heart full of happy wondering when it will all be zapped away by some sort of tragedy whether it be great or small. i wish i could take that out of my brain….
Those are beautiful shots of your little girl
Happy for you!
What adorable pictures!
Congrats on Listen To Your Mother. I know you’ll be awesome.
I loved your Nacho story – so quirky – so Beth.
And finally, I love that you’re keeping You Capture AND moving it to Monday. Genius!
OMG Adorable Pictures!!
I know the feelings of “when will the shoe drop” but just keep enjoying all the good days! 
And I’m glad things are going so good.
These are beautiful, Beth. This is your season–embrace it.
I feel like timing everywhere has been perfect lately, even in the crappy stuff that’s happened (we had a bad week last week) things still fall into their place. I feel like that’s what happened with you and Listen To Your Mother- I can’t imagine the show without you. You answered a call- Im so thankful you did.
Steph
PS that last photo of Clara = best ever.
that baby is adorable
Ditto on that 2nd picture of Clara. Sooo stinking cute! Love It!
I love nacho’s anytime, and wow that baby is adorable. YOU are so blessed. Enjoy her sweetness.
She it too much cute.
I think your anxiety or whatever you want to call it, about something bad being around the corner, is totally normal and understandable. We can hope and pray that our faith eventually drives those thoughts out, but we’re human. Having suffered a great loss only makes it more difficult.
I think you will be fantastic at LTYM. I can’t wait to watch it online when it is available.
Wow … she is growing so fast and is SO BEAUTIFUL.
Yay, I am so happy to read one of your Friday posts again, although this time I am reading it on Sat
I so missed reading your Friday Morning Coffee posts which always put a smile on my face.
Her skirt and headband are so pretty.
Congratulations on being chosen for LTYM. I wish I could be there live to listen to your heartfelt words. I will be thinking of you and praying for you when the big day arrives. You will be amazing! It is wonderful to see how happy you are right now and I hope your blessings continue to arrive in abundance because you definitely deserve them. Thank you for reminding me to feel a little more blessed as it has been a challenging few months for me. Clara is an absolute doll. I love those two pics of her and the feet in the air are too cute
Beautiful pictures! I’ve been reading your blog for a while – I LOVE your work. Clara is gorgeous!
I’m curious how you feel about Pinterest and people pinning your pictures (assuming the picture links back to the original blog post, of course.) I know some photographers don’t mind and others prefer not to be pinned to protect their work.
Good lord, I missed your words.
I’m so happy for you and your LTYM gig! How scary and exciting at the same time!
Also, these Clara photos might just be the cutest things I’ve ever seen. What color are your walls? I always think it looks so pretty!