“We must build dikes of courage to hold back the flood of fear.”
-Martin Luther Kind, Jr.
There are always big things to do in life. Things we hate, but we do them anyway. Things we love, so it’s easier to tackle. And even though we love? It doesn’t always remove trepidation, it just that something bigger than you (your heart? God? the universe?) helps you move your feet in the right direction.
And then there are things we fear, we tread softly, anxiously.
Listen to Your Mother was this past Thursday. I feared speaking in front of this audience of 350 people like nothing I’ve ever feared before. There were tears and sweat (OMGTHESWEAT) and anxiety. At some point, a few weeks and, okay, DAYS before LTYM, I would ask myself “what did you do, Beth? Why did you feel it necessary to audition?”
Friends. I panicked.
It was until the day of the show could I answer my own question “because I want to share my story.” It was a want. A need. A desire. A love. An excitement.
My nervousness turned into excitement, like a switch, I beautiful switch.
And so, Stephanie, my graceful friend and the (amazing) director, approached the stage and welcomed the crowd.
And then she introduced me. I was first.
I began to read, I felt the audience listening and I enjoyed every single moment I was on stage, sharing my story.
It went by quickly. I sat back down and I was able to relax and take in the amazing stories about mothering that continued to grace the stage. As a guest, I know, the night was amazing. As a member of the cast? It was something I will treasure for the rest of my life.
I am so glad I followed my heart. I am so happy I faced fear.
It was a magical night.
(the video will be online this summer, I promise to share with you as soon as it’s available.)