The quick edition.
I’m sipping my coffee, which is cold and eating S’mores Pop Tarts. They are so good but I am joining Weight Watchers soon so the S’mores Pop Tarts are making a brief (and delicious) appearance in my life right now.
The week has improved. Compared to last week, I’d say this week is 60% better which says A LOT. My biggest frustration comes when I am nursing because he’s so hungry and gets so frustrated so easily, so what should be a pleasant nursing session turns into crying and screaming and clawing.
Eli cries, too.
This was happening before but not during every feeding but now it’s damn near every feeding.
It’s frustrating. REALLY. We have a follow up appointment with the lactation consultant this morning (which is why this is the quick edition), I’m scared and excited to see how Eli and I have done this week.
Team James and Jake is walking in the March of Dimes March for Babies tomorrow. I’m pretty excited about this event simply because it’s the only time of year where family and friends gather to show their love for James and Jake. I can’t believe it’s been over two years since we lost them. Seems like yesterday. Then again, seems like a lifetime ago.
I wish tomorrow would be just another Saturday with two twin boys running around our house and a newborn hanging out, too, while Anna and Noah run and play outside. To me, that is the most beautiful image, it’s my dream, my dream that will never come true.
So, instead, I’ll take tomorrow and all of the beauty and meaning that comes along with it. I’ll take it and love it with all of my heart and soul.
We haven’t reached our team goal, yet, which is okay, of course, I just wish we could raise more money for MORE research because how precious are our babies?
I’m wondering if you could give up one Starbucks coffee, one quarter pounder, anything, something small and donate to my walk?
I figured out that if a QUARTER of my visitors just donated FIVE DOLLARS TODAY … I would raise $2,000. Five dollars, that’s it.
Anyway, if you can, THANK YOU, your generosity means so much to me.
And to those who have already donated – THANK YOU SO MUCH! You amaze me! (don’t forget, if you donate $50 or more, you’ll receive a Team James and Jake key chain!)
It’s supposed to rain tomorrow during the six mile walk, which excites Anna to no end.
Finally, today is the last day that Brian will be home with me during the day. I realize how lucky I am that I have this great helper here during the day and for this long. He’s been home for four weeks, the last two weeks he’s been working from home. I know I’ll be okay but I have no idea how I’m going to swing the mornings getting Anna and Noah ready for school and, most likely, nursing Eli during that time. It’s going to be a challenge but I will manage. And secretly, I’m a little excited about it.
I’m hoping Eli and I will drop the kids off and come home and do lots of this:
That would be make me a very, very happy Mama.
Happy Friday, friends.
