I’ve got my raisin bran and my coffee. My coffee is much needed today, I am so sleepy. Elijah has been sleeping pretty well (PLEASEDON’TJINXIT.) Today he slept until five after I laid him down at ten last night. The day before I laid him down at ten and he slept until six!
Today, I nursed him and laid him back down at six and then I laid down and fell asleep HARD CORE. He woke up at seven crying his tiny little head off. I still can’t figure out why. I’m thinking maybe a belly ache? I nursed him and that relaxed him and then he had two explosions in his diaper.
We have been putting him in this new chair (new for him) and he loves it. That’s how I’m able to write right now. He stares at it likes it’s an alien and then he kicks his legs like crazy. It’s unbelievably adorable. I already feel like he’s growing up too quickly.
Today is the first day of summer vacation. I feel like I should feel like a bad Mom because right now Noah is playing Wii and Anna is on the computer and it’s only 8:38 in the morning. But I don’t actually feel like a bad Mom because I know once they make their beds and brush their teeth, they’ll go outside and play all day long.
Anna has a birthday party today at the neighbor’s house. They have a pool and water scares me. I’ve made plans with Stephanie, we are taking our kids on a picnic and a walk while Anna’s at the party, I’m so nervous leaving her there. (she can’t swim)
Brian tells me I need to loosen my strings a little, that I bring so much stress on myself just with worry. I can’t help it, I get it from my Mom.
So far today, Anna has asked me at least 25 questions and she’s been awake for 70 minutes. That’s a lot of questions to ask someone who doesn’t have a lot of patience today. We bought her a new bathing suit and face mask last night. She wants to put them on right now for a party that’s in three hours. I’m tempted to let her just for the sake of peace.
Don’t you hate it when you don’t have patience? It’s like you know you don’t have patience, you know you don’t like not having patience but you just don’t know how to get the patience.
Anna keeps talking to me about the party, like right now, as I type. She’s trying on her bathing suit right now. I just gave her permission to keep it on for awhile, for the sake of peace. Eli is getting fussy and now I’m wondering how I’m going to get through the day without any patience.
I mean, I know I’ll get through it, but I’d like to do it somewhat gracefully, you know? So far? That’s not happening.
ANYWAY, this weekend is the first weekend in a really long time without any plans. I hope it stays that way. We plan to start the weekend out by cleaning the house tomorrow morning. I have this deep desire to make my house lighter, to fill up bags for Goodwill and give stuff away via Freecycle and also to throw things away. We have too much stuff.
I feel like I’ve tortured you with my ramblings.
By the way, this piece of crap post took me over two three hours to write.
I need some tylenol.
I hope your weekend is better than this post.