I need therapy for my therapy.

Ever since my appointment yesterday I have felt like all of my emotions and feelings are sitting out on a platter, I feel exposed and raw and I can't believe I paid someone to throw me against the wall over and over again.  I was hopeful, before my appointment, that I would feel refreshed and convinced that I was really going to be okay, but instead I spent the day in a fog, feeling sad and darker than I had in a little while, I did sleep for ninety minutes after my post yesterday, it was a great way to hide from my feelings.

But I have to believe that the appointment yesterday is the way it's supposed to be, as DIFFICULT and PAINFUL as it was, I have to believe that someday, in the future, I won't hurt so bad and hopefully therapy will help with that.

Please tell me this is right.  Otherwise, I'm not going back.  (well, I will go back, but my feet will be dragging.)

Comments

[Mrs. Wilson]

Oh man, I hate therapy and love it at the same time. I went once, but only for a short time. Maybe by getting everything out in the open, you'll have a chance to start healing. Take your time though! Let yourself heal at the pace you want, and do not let yourself feel rushed about it.

God cares about you. He cares when you're hurting. He's always there to listen.

[Sara]

Therapy is one of the hardest things to do. I have a hard time going, but I know I should. It will get easier, I promise. I'll keep praying for you! Day by day is all you can ask of yourself!